nur@zri

Re-link.

2007-06-12T16:46:00.000+08:00

This blog is OFFICIALLY no longer in service as of June 12, 2007.

Please re-link Azri at,

http://www.shambolic-melancholia.blogspot.com/

and Azimah at,

http://www.xpialidocious.blogspot.com/

Thank you.

insecured

2007-06-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

browsing through their gorgeous pictures in friendsters and whatnot, sometimes, i do get jealous over his ex's. 'cause i'll never be as perfect... never. i'm just too simple to please, get it? deep down inside, i wonder why.

and i'm touched

2007-06-11T10:09:00.000+08:00

i found this...

"1. I can't get to sleep without?:
`her call."

"8. What makes you happy?:
`her. =))"

"9. I find the thought of childbirth:
`as having your heart living outside of your body."

"28. Missing someone right now?:
`oh yesssss. =))"

"29. What's your favorite smell?:
`i LOVE her scent! =)))))"

"32. Have you ever been kissed in the rain?:
`yesssss! and its sooooo cool. =))"

"33. What are you thinking about right now?:
`her. haha! =))"

"50. What did you last hug?:
`my baby!"

"51. Message to those who love u:-
`love me sincerely."

"60. Who cheers you up the most in your life?
`my beloved."

ain't he the sweetest...

oh, he knows his `thang and he turns me on, though unknowingly. =)) !

i, self-declare that i'm 100%-ly his and mark my words, no other guys will ever stand a chance, not at all. 'cause i'm all yours, forever.

i love you, hubbybun! i really do, ultimately!

mondays...

2007-06-11T09:21:00.000+08:00

i desperately need something to turn me on today, else, i'll be dead boreddddd. and it's suicide, please. =X

believes

2007-06-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

secretly...

i do believe in a fake up of make up.
and oh, so random. =/

changes just had to be made

2007-06-10T10:45:00.000+08:00

NEW SKIN, NEW SONG, PEOPLE ! =))))) !

it's been days since we last blog, and i didn't even notice it before. that shows how busy we are with certain stuffs right now. pardon us. and cavana's higher authority is trying to challenge my patience limit, i suppose. seriously, i'm blowing soon. sooner, mind you. __

and imeem is being such a bitch! the number of people showcasing only 30 seconds preview of their songs collection is increasing drastically, and it sucks. i find it difficult to find a full version of certain songs that i want/looking for. but seriously, why would they even have the idea to "share" if they just want to preview only a teeny-weeny bit of the song to others, then? might as well, keep it to yourself, and don't bother sharing at all, right?! stupid people! =/

common tests are drawing near and i've yet/no mood to start on my mugging sessions at all. 3 projects are already in hand, and what's worst, i have no bloody idea on what to do with every single one of them. how, great. i guess i have to start questioning people about that, which means, extra burden for me then. WEEEEE... =(((((

judging from the above, life's getting pretty irritating. enough said.

AWESOME OCEAN'S THIRTEEN !

2007-06-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

OCEAN'S THIRTEEN WAS AWESOME !

TOTALLY !

'cause i'm all-smiles when i'm out from the theatre, feeling all undoubtedly satisfied, impressed and awed by their witty-ness in robbing powerful conglomerate, right from the very beginning. i've always felt cool and smooth whenever i watched the ocean's. definitely a must-watch ! 5/5 pleaseeeee !

and and, ~~brad pitt~~ azri is loved ! LMAO ! =))))) !

TODAY'S LOVED !

2007-06-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

today is much loved !
but, sorry people, no elaborations needed, thank you ! =X

and and, tomorrow, i'm going back to school after like several days, long gone from the study-world due to being extremely unwell etc. i swear i'm getting home-sick, seriously ! i bet'cha that i had missed quite a handsome but still, i think i did quite well for my programming's laboratory test this time around. triple YAYYYYY, please ! LOL ! =))))) !

and, i've found out something very, very, very interesting which i think azri ought to know about this, and he'll love it ! oh yeah, he will ! LOL ! but for now, i just have to wait for his return from a movie with his fellow siblings. i'm missing him lots already... =(

AND DAMN IT ! HE GOT IT FIRST !
SO UNFAIR !
SO UNFAIRRRRR !

...dorts... i know, you know what i'm talking about right, sayang ? T_T

come back soon, will you ?

it's 17 mth baby!

2007-06-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

Hey fellow readers, well nuting much happening lately. The past 9-pin tap tournaments wasn't thrilling at all, darn it!. I must get a new ball. My current bowling ball is darn weak. Well I've been eyeing on one already. Probably will get is sometime next month or so! N oh oh! Im getting a clear ball too! With a skull inside it. Cool huh?? haha! wait till i get it then you'll see. Haiz. Now i've to work to earn the money. And work is getting more stupid. I mean the manager always complains short of hand. But then again i see numorous people apply but she didnt wanna accept them. And when she does, the people that she accepted always a pain in the ass. Not to be insulting or what lar, but i see from the current new people, they're abit sorry to say, "slow". Well cant blame them lar. But the faults probably on the manager. She knows that place is quite busy during peak hours and she knows they cant afford to hire such people. It will only dampen the momentum(is it hw u spell it?haha!). You get what i mean?

Well today alone has seen 4 new people applying for work. I just hope she'll make the right choices in hiring more dependable staffs. She cant always depend on me or azimah. This is not to brag or what lah, but the Sun Plaza Cavana is gonna have a hard ass time without us i tell you. And they are even now proposing a raise to Boss of that outlet for us so that we would continue working there. Well 4.50 aint dat bad ya? That's wad our's manager proposing nw to the boss. I hope it goes through. It better be. I mean we've been working so damn hard there and i think dat's what we deserve at least. And mind you, working there isn't as easy as you think. Wait till u people serve crazy-ass-no-good-impatient customers, 10 of them in a row during peak hours. Nonetheless, i like working there, the people are great and all, but if i have to, i'll leave that place if i find it necessary. Boss or not boss, he is still a person, and so am i, and i believe i should be paid accordingly after half a year working there.

Well, speaking of work. Im pissed of at something. Or some Company for that matter. It's none other then Royal Sporting House. Remember that time that i said they called me. Haiz. When i went for the interview, I know i didnt liked it already as how things were going on in that room. And lastly she said, she tried to contact the operations manager but couldnt get tru. And said they'll call me back next week to see if they wants me. I mean come on lar! U called the operations manager and can't get through? what kinda stupid bullshit is that? U NEVER cant get through to operations manager. She's the OPERATIONS MANAGER!. She has to be able to get through to. If not she'll be fired. and i don't think she'd want that wouldn't she? I'm not that stupid lar. It's common sense please. Well, till now from last 2 weeks, i havent heard from them like what they promised. And they said it was last week. Well, who cares right. Maybe i do a little bit. Darn it!

Baby's sick for the past 4 days and i feel for her. It hurts to see her in that state. Not her joyful-self. It's kinda dull now reallie. But perfectly understandable. She's sick again! Oh come on! I wonder why it has to be her. See lar. i told u not to sleep late right, Always sleep late then wake up early. Not enough rest, that's why you're sick. Hmm. Well now u get more rest okay. I want you to heal quickly so we can be like always, the ever so playful us! yay! i miss that. i miss you.
i miss us. She's been stuck at home cos of high fever and all. So I haven't been seeing her this past few days. That's why i miss her so. And to top it off, today is our Monthsary, and we can't celebrate it. Oh well, i pray her to be well so we can celebrate afterwards. YAY!

And i wish u Happie 17th Monthsary dearest baby!

and only God knows hw much i Love ya.

and hw much i mean it when i say i wanna start a family with ya someday.

oh don't worry, we're just having fun dat time! haha!I Miss u syg.Happie 17th Monthsary again.MUCH LOVE BABY!

HAPPY 17TH MONTH !

2007-06-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

Some people live for the fortune

Some people live just for the fame

Some people live for the power, yeah

Some people live just to play the game

Some people think that the physical things

Define what's within, and I've been there before

But that life's a bore, so full of the superficial

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing at all

If it ain't you baby

If I ain't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain't got you, yeah

Some people search for a fountain

Promises forever young

Some people need three dozen roses

And that's the only way to prove you love them

And in a world on a silver platter

And wondering what it means

No one to share, no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing at all

If it ain't you baby

If I ain't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me, baby

Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing

If I ain't got you with me, baby

these lyrics tells it all... =))))) ! i love you, azri !

T_T...

2007-06-04T11:54:00.000+08:00

and while i was expecting at least a surprise tight hug from you... only then will i feel safe/secured/comfortable/healthy/cared for...

did, you ? =((((( !

2 DAYS MC AGAIN !!!

seriously, could things get any worser than this ?

FAMOUS LOVE QUOTE !

2007-06-04T09:49:00.000+08:00

LOVE ME FOR A REASON...

AND LET THAT REASON BE LOVE, BABY !

and i'm off for doctor... "YIPPIEEEEE" ! =((((( !

SICK, SICK, SICK !

2007-06-03T17:23:00.000+08:00

AND I'M SICK AGAIN !

ARGHHHHH !

for god's sake, throughout these 365 days for a whole year of 2007, how many times must i get bed-ridden, feeling all weak/nausea and so forth ? 'cause, seriously, i'm getting sick of being sick all the time ! !@#$%^&

and as you can see, once i'm sick, my eyes will get all swollen alike a goldfish, which perhaps only god knows why. it has always been that way. once my body temperature starts to "boil" etc, my eyes will bloat. it's natural. but, i'm fortunate enough that this time around, it's not as red as the usuals, thankfully, or i'll suffer even more, trust me ! that's the reason why i hated being sick sooooo very the much, 'cause i'll look uglier than ever ! and i hate being ugly ! =((((( !

BUT, THAT WON'T STOP ME FROM SMILING THOUGH !

HAHAHAHAHA !

and he's working till 8, while i rot my ass home, mug, mug and mug throughout the whole day. oh wells, today, is yet another boring day of mine, i suppose. what luck ! =((((( !

but, i just can't stop thinking of you ! *sighs*

till other times y'all, goodbye ! =)) !

I NEED YOU !

2007-06-03T01:41:00.000+08:00

oooooooooohhhhhhhhhh~...

i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you.

i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i miss you.

i might sound like a crazy, fanatic women and what not but, i seriously need this and it means so much to me at this very moment in time. only our dear god knows how much i longed for your presence right before my eyes, and feel your soft touch and warmth upon me, under the dimly-lit, gorgeous full moon of the night. and you, whispering to me with your sexiest voice ever, saying how beautiful i am, gazing me with that ever so sincere look in those brown eyes of yours. i could feel your soft, warm breath on my neck, counting the air that you breath as your heart's pounding to the beat. i swear i felt the love, i really do ! ... and now, i'm turned on ! WEEEEE ! =))))) !

OH, COME TO ME PAPA !

'cause you know, that i needed you, right here, right now, baby !

BORING !

2007-06-02T07:32:00.000+08:00

today will be my official mugging(since i need to catch up a lot, and i mean a LOT !) and working day...

SOOOOO BORINGGGGG ! =((((( !

WEIRD ME ?

2007-05-31T10:58:00.000+08:00

I'M CROSSWORD-PUZZLED !

i cried when i browsed through those chat logs. how i wish, it never really did happen, but it did anyways, hoping silently that it will never ever repeat itself again in the future. but, this feelings... it's scaring me. i'm afraid that i'm going to be the one making that very same mistakes over and over again. i didn't call, neither did i even tried to have a decent conversation with him in MSN the day before, nor responding to any single one of his SMS's.

what is wrong with me ? tell me, tell me, tell me ! =((((( !

no doubt, he did tried and he tried. but, i'm the one being extremely ignorant to the maximum here. i think i somewhat need a major therapy/counselling, to deal with this thing called love. is it because i don't trust him anymore ? but, logically, that will be oh, so impossible 'cause i loved him, and definitely you wouldn't want to love someone whom you don't trust at all, am i right ? then, why, azimah ? i guess, there's only one possible answer to this and that is, the heart has its reasons which reason knows not of.

but, just so you know, i'm really very sorry for this unwanted behaviour of mine ! i just want to be by myself for a little while, i guess. i'm making things complicated without even realising it, oh dear god`.

gosh, i'm so caught up from my very own deeds ! weird, am i ? =/

anyways, i know i didn't call or replied this to you, but sincerely, good luck for your bowling tournament today ! have fun like none would, while i'm tormenting myself with these questions and what not. ohwells. and no doubt, i'm missing you like crazy... =((((( !

FCUKED UP !

2007-05-30T21:42:00.000+08:00

INTERNET'S BEING SUCH A BLEAHHHHH !

and i'm far from happy right now. scared, more like it ?

enough said.

Bagaikan Sakti

2007-05-29T23:29:00.000+08:00

don't ask me why i loves this song to bits, the lyrics itself speaks everything. see for yourself. it makes you feel... the love. =))))) !

M.Nasir speaks:
Setapak melangkah,
Dua langkah ingatan kanda pada dinda.

Tiara speaks:
Adinda bersumpah,
Jikalau kekanda tidak kembali,
Adinda akan menyusul kekanda,
Menginjak pada tanah yang sama,
Bernafas pada udara yang sama.

M.Nasir speaks:
Layar berbelok-belok,
Sauh dibungkar di tempat tenang,
Yang tinggal hati tak elok,
Yang pergi hati tak senang,
Bila sampai waktu,
Kita akan bersama.

Siti:
Cinta datang
Tanpa diundang
Seumur masa tercipta

M.Nasir:
Dia datang bagai sakti
Bagai menyaksi mekar
Kembang pagi
Oh...

Siti:
Cinta datang
Dengan senyuman
Panasnya membakar mentari

Both:
Wajahnya yang tergambar
Tak akan terpudar
Dari hati insan yang fana ini
Fana ini....

M.Nasir:
Tak mungkin mentari
Akan terus sembunyi

Siti:
Tiada sempadan
Tak bisa ku lewati

[Chorus] Both:
Cinta ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku
Menanti mu walau sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya

Cinta ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa dan raga
Jika ini ketentuannya
Kau kan.......... jadi milik ku
Jua.....

[Repeat Chorus]

sooooo romantis, kn, kn, kn ? HAHA ! i loves the voice combination of Siti Nurhaliza and M Nasir. they sound perfect together. furthermore, the genre of this song relives its uniqueness, making it sound extremely soothing and fresh whenever you hear it. oh, i just loves basically anything that has got to do with it ! it's flawless ! =)) !

and to those "kiddos" ('cause you guys really are amateurs/no-brainers indeed, no offence), who tend to bark at azri earlier this day, though not literally, but please, may i remind you, never ever do that again ! my heart is fury with anger when i heard from him about that incident ! be more co-operative to others and towards their situation right at that point of time ! my patience do have limits and i can be the most hideous monster/irritating irritant if you'd ever turned me into one ! and this goes to that someone too ! just **** off my life, idiots !

fuuuuuh ! now, then i'm relieved... and guess what ?

I'M BACK !

P/S;

'cause you're so loved by me.

it has never been easy, never.

if youtube myspace, i'll google your yahoo !

peace out !

268!

2007-05-28T00:32:00.000+08:00

Today's 9 pin tap tournament has been a roller coaster ride for me.Compared to the previous tournament that i participated in, i reallie didnt know which one i did better in. First game started off reallie2 well for me,then the next 2 games took a steep stumble, dropping off by almost 100 pins. The forth game was an improvement by almost 20 pins compared to the 3rd game. But the 5th and 6th game was a total meltdown which send me straight down to the gallows, that explain hw bad i did for the last 2 games. It was depressing i tell ya. But amidst the sadness. There is still something to rejoice about. This picture tells why..

If you coudnt see, the first on top is M standing for Michelle, D is for Dexter and KA is for Khairul Azri. Yes yes, the 2nd frame was a total ass bad luck. it should have been a strike and i would have suceeded in ataining my first perfect game. But then it was a split. But thank god i strike home and that is another thing to celebrate about. Well, this shall be my highest game yet of 268 pins. Let's see what next thursday's tournament brings. Time for redemption..

,
az

B O R I N G !

2007-05-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

I'M BORED !

care to talk to me, anyone ? =/

Perfect love is rare indeed - for to be a lover will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist, the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint, the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain.

Love doesn't make the world go 'round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile. And love will only fails, when we fail to love.

thoughts

2007-05-26T20:22:00.000+08:00

i've the urge to change our blogskin again.

should i ?

random-ness !

2007-05-26T09:47:00.000+08:00

M-I-T 0602 !

you guys have NO idea how much i'm missing each and every one of you people ! i'm missing y'all like crazy, you know ? you know ? you know ? =/

and just look at how much we've grown these past 16 months, right from our very beginning together...

lllv

SUCH BIG DIFFERENCE AYE !

judging from the pictures themselves, you could simply tell that i've changed a lot more as compared to azri, right from the hair, yes ? to my dressing style, yes ? and, getting fatter, indeed ! oh wells, as long as my heart stay true to one soul only, that's fair enough, i should say. boy, you're missed, desperately... =(( !

i want to see you, tell me how, baby ?

OH ! OH ! OH !

2007-05-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

and so, we talked about our past sweeet memories that we've shared together thus far, laughed while reminiscing it and cam-whored throughout the long wait for az's interview at the Wisma Gulab Building which indeed, turned out to be just fine. much thanks, raidah, for the directions or we'll just get lost along the way, undoubtedly. HAHA ! =))

GREAT SINGAPORE SALE'S COMING PEOPLE !YIPPIEEEEE ! =D

i want to shop, shop, shop for new clothes but, i swear i'm ~~NOT~~ a shopaholic ! i really am not ! oh, whatever ! just keep telling yourself that, honey ! HAHA ! dorts.

and and, my IT2839 test... let's just say i'm able to do it. thankfully, or i'll die, seriously. if 80% for the quiz itself sounds okay to you, then i'll guess i'm going to make it ! not confident but, convinced enough. credits to the helps though. =) but on the other hand, judging from that 2nd warning letter i've received, i'm simply counting the days to be debarred from that IT1845 programming class again. oh my` what do i do ? what do i doo ? what do i dooo ? =((((( !

i'm starting to hate someone. and mind you, hate, in my opinion, is indeed a very, very strong word to use. so, erm let me think again... yup, i'm hating him ! enough said.

and just look, i can be ugly at times, you know...

maybe, not. perhaps, most of the time ? sureee. HAHA !

=xxxxxxxxxx

See beyond my imperfections. That itself, is perfection, baby.

You turn me on like an easy bake oven !

yes, you !

get out of my life, fuckers !

2007-05-24T20:10:00.000+08:00

F U C K YOU, ~~MR WAYNE~~ !

ARGH !

NEWater !

2007-05-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

NEWater !

i've been wondering all this while, what's it taste like ?

and we actually tasted the real it, today !

erm well, it does help to quench my thirst only a little...

and azri seems to be "loving" it...

i guess the saying which was once spread ever so ragingly among ourselves,

is finally proven to be true indeed.

IT TASTED LIKE PIPE WATER ALRIGHT !

and by having the idea that it's sewage water initially, which was then to be "reverse-osmosised" in order to purify it, simply grosses me to the core ! =/ but, honestly, it's ain't that bad afterall. i believe, someday, somehow, all of us Singaporeans will have to drink it anyways. afterall, to conserve and value our water usage in this small island of ours, was the main focus/ objective here. so, hail to the creation of NEWater ! HAHA ! =D

WE SUPPORT YOU !

and dearest az was being such a good boyfriend today ! just look at him with two bags, one of which is mine, definitely, and a heavy file filled with notes, supposedly mine too, sliding his way down the stairs. *melts* FYI, he's been carrying my bag all the way when i was in school, leaving me walking free-handedly, just for the sake of it. thank you so much, love !

and he did a lil' sum'2 to my face ! HAHA ! he tried to apply some make-up on me just to kill our boredom-ness in school then. he uses a lil' bit of eye-liner on my eyes, but not too obvious or i'll look extremely ugly, some powder and also lip gloss to complete it. take a look...

NOT BAD, AYE !

though my eyes look a lil' retarded but, it's okay though. and oh, oh ! we caught its sneak preview today ! YIPIEEEEEEEEEE ! =)) !

AT WORLD'S END !
PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN - 3 !

and it was amazingly splendid ! though confusing initially, but they manage to meet the climax, clearing most of our doubts regarding the plot right at the end of it. it's indeed awesomely satisfying like how i've predicted it would be ! i extremely loved the way the story goes along ever so smoothly, yet flawless, no matter how complicated the storyline could get. and i loved the part when Elizabeth and Will Turner got married ! it's so romantic and need i say, unique ? not forgetting the humour it possesses ! never fails to crack us up, seriously. they deserved a 4.5/5 ! =D it's a must-watch !

we enjoyed ourselves to the maximum today !
weeeee~

WE'RE THE HAPPIEST COUPLE FOR THE DAY ! =D

YIPPIEEEEE !

2007-05-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

today, was indeed, erm, blessed, i should say ? HAHA ! 'cause not only that we had received two extremely overwhelming good news, but also, our rezeki bertambah, though indirectly.

AZRI MADE IT TO ONE OF HIS BOWLING LEAGUES !

AND ...

HIS STRUGGLE TO FIND A BETTER PART-TIME JOB WAS FINALLY PAID OFF !

CONGRATULATIONS, DEAR !

and i couldn't be more happier. if he's happy, i'll be twice as happy as he is. i remembered we skipped around ever so jubilantly in school, and we hugged, and we hugged, and we hugged each other, trying so hard to conceal our gay-ness about this, but failed. HAHA ! furthermore, the call from The Royal Sporting House was totally unexpected ! it's interview is not till this friday and i would love to wish my dear, tons and tons of luck ! $6/hour is not that bad, aren't they ? WOOO ! i'm too overwhelmed to be just happy ! i'm supercalifragilisticexpialidocious ! =))

and that bubble tea girl, accidentally give us a wrong change in return. we bought Oreo Chocolate Series Bubble Tea for $1.50 and so, we gave her $2. instead of giving us $0.50 back common sense-ly, she gave us $1.30. -???!!!- but, we kept quiet though. and then we bought ourselves some delicious bakery bread to compensate ! WAKAKA ! omg` we're so bad ! heck.

not forgetting, azri registered for his driving license thingy too and was confirmed to sit for his basic theory test on the 31-st of July. i can't wait for him to get himself a brand new car, with me, the first lady(cehhh !), sitting right next to him at the front seat. it's going to be totally awesome !

see, i told you our today was blessed ! =D

and and, who say that i couldn't tie up my hair as yet, huh, huh, huh ? i told you it's possible. bluek ! =p take a look...

I MAY NEED ANOTHER 5 MORE KISSES FROM YOU ! HAHAHAHAHA ! ;D

it's okay now, it's O K A Y !

2007-05-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

WE'RE A OKAY !

thank goodness.

and since i've promised my umi and baba that i've got to change my attitude towards school and whatnot... well, today marks the very first day of it.

and , i did pretty well. YAY ! i went to school at 7+ in the morning, and straight right back at home at about 4+ in the afternoon. they looked rather pleased, i should say.

furthermore, azri's meeting with both of them today, at my house at around 5+ in the afternoon, merely just to come clean and apologise to them about our stupid deeds that had made them totally haywire lately, turned out to be ain't that bad. though before that, undeniably, our knees are trembling real hard with our hearts beating so fast at the thought of how scary/angry my parents will be at the sight of him. but fortunately, it turned out to be a OK ! and i'm thankful/blessed enough to have such reasonable parents like them. =D

and azri behaved pretty well, thankfully ! HAHA !

and dear, let's just say yesterday, was my very BIG mistake and yet again, i'm sorry, deeply. thanks for being so understanding and devoted to me despite all that i had done. honestly, i don't deserve your kindness at all. let's just get over it and move on alright. and hell yeah, i'll mark my words ! =(

I'M A HAPPIER GIRL NOW ! YIPPIEEEEE ! =)) ! much thanks to you !

alhamdulillah, syukur.

GOOD LUCK !

2007-05-20T10:07:00.000+08:00

oh and by the way,

GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR TOURNAMENT MY DEAR !

and have some fun.

dilemma...

2007-05-20T08:40:00.000+08:00

yesterday, was a sad, sad day for me. i spent about 98.52% of the day crying, be it anywhere, in the toilet or in my bed or while trying to do my reports and assignments which i had yet to complete, though it's already way passed the dateline etc.

my umi and baba received a letter from NYP and also POSB, and they got to know about my constant absentees from school as well as the statements of my various ATM transactions for the past 1 month.

and i'm doomed !

they didn't know that i hated my current course, Multimedia And Info-Communication Technolgy to the core and that i had lost my interest in it since ever. they didn't know how dead boring the lectures are in polytechnics and how hard i'm trying to hold on to it. they didn't know what ridiculous things i'm learning right now, which i find totally useless/uncalled for in the working world at all. i just wanted to teach, why the hell should i learn all these IT stuffs, like the inside view of a PC, the RAM, the ROM, programming skeletons and irritating JAVA etc. it's not like i'm going to be a programmer or something in the future right ? i feel like as if i'm wasting my time here in polytechnic but, they didn't know. i just want to go NIE and then teach. ain't that simpler ? that's my all-time passion and i'm pretty sure i'm not going to lose my interest in it. i swear upon anything ! i kept quiet, but, they didn't try to understand. not at all. =(

they thought azri wasn't good enough for me, and that he's taking advantage of my money. they say whatever that he has given to me thus far is not worth whatever that i had spent on him. they say that he's not responsible enough and he's immatured. they say that i could get a better guy in the future, so why the hell should i stick to him ? they say i had changed a lot since i'd met him. and they say they couldn't recognise me as their daughter, Nurazimah, anymore, all because of him. they say he relied too much on me, where the hell is his parents ? they say i should be the one dependable to him, not otherwise. they say that he's just trying to "pakai" me, just for the sake of kissing and hugging. thay say it's not love ! it's just mere infatuation/puppy love and that i'm ridiculous enough to fall for him. they say he's not the one and they say that...

... that i should leave him.

but they didn't know. they didn't know that whatever i had spent on him is with my own will. he didn't ask for it, not at all, i was the one who's trying so hard to be a wonderful girlfriend. i know he's not my husband yet and that i shouldn't have done all that, but he will. i have utmost faith in that. and he's still 18, too young to be too matured, they should at least give him some space to "maturised" himself. hell no, there's no other guy better than him. and damn, this is love ! this is love, god damn it ! it is ! and about "pakai", it just hurts me too much. way too much. they just didn't know all these. and they're not even trying to understand my feelings, not a teeny bit. =((

they called me bloody fool !

they called me stupid !

they called me brainless!

now tell me, could i be any sad-der ? tell me, am i that stupid ? am i too blinded by love ? ...

but hey, i do realise my mistakes and whatever they're trying to portray. i understand their feelings and the reasons as to why they're so angry at me. and i'm pretty sure it's because they're too afraid i might not love them too much like i did azri, and that i might change to be the very worst from the very best(faham2 kan je lah). i'm going to change. i promise ! and i swear i'm going to bring back their daughter, Nurazimah, which they claimed thay had lost, somewhere along in this bitterness. and i feel so sorry for shedding their blissful tears. they didn't know how sorry i felt when tears started flowing down their cheeks. and i love you, umi and baba ! i love you way more than anything and nothing could change that fact. but this...

it's just too hard for me to let go.

it's too precious.

and he's my life.

i'm sorry that i'm unable to fulfill your wishes, but umi and baba have to accept this fact that i can't live without him. i'll suffer. honestly, i will.

god, i'm in such a dilemma. =((((( !

YAY !

2007-05-20T00:55:00.000+08:00

I'VE COMPLETED ONE OF MY REPORTS !!!

YIPPIEEEEEEEEEE !!!

at least there's something to be happy about today...

FRIENDSTER ?

2007-05-19T10:18:00.000+08:00

should i or shouldn't i create another new account on Friendster ?

*dorts*

and i'm just too lazy to start on my reports. how i wish i could have someone/something to do it for me instead. to summarise, i'm getting real sick of school. polytechnic sucks, i'd prefer my secondary school days if you ask me. =(

I'M DOOMED !

2007-05-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

GOD, AM I THAT STUPID ???!!!

AM I TOO BLINDED BY LOVE ???!!!

you

guys

have

idea

how

i'm

feeling

right

now

NO IDEA !

this is probably the worst day of my life as it couldn't be any worser. decisions, my foot ! i hate it when i'm being told what to do or what not to. i'm sick of my life right now and my self-esteem is at its lowest possible state ever. this... is just not me.

enough said. =(

NEOPRINT MANIACO !

2007-05-18T09:18:00.000+08:00

alright, since this is like our first time ever to take a picture with Neoprint together (i know, how pathetic was that?), i just had to put them up here ! it's $10 worth of pictures + $2 to laminate both of them, so, why not right ?

PRESENTING ...

AREN'T THEY PRETTY OR WHAT ?

woah, well, $12 for just these, they better be. haha ! i'd love to take more of it in the future, ok sayang ? haha ! =)) !

i want to go out ! away from my house... i'm dying of boredomness here, like seriously.but my eyes is still sore, you know, and i'm afraid it will infect more people (since my niece was already infected by me, and it's such a pity to look at her that way, imagine a cute little baby girl with red, swollen eyes). god, i feel so helpless. damn it !

my father's out to work, and it's been 2 weeks since we talked... nah ! i'd better not talk about it or i'll be haywired. but, i'm happy that az's family is getting along well. that's sufficient enough to make me happy for the day ! weeeee ! ;p

i'm currently indulged with this lame book, The World Of Suzie Wong by Richard Mason. the strange thing about this book is that, though boring, it kept me awake and turning the pages for more of it. and i did learn something from it, not all prostitutes are bad, you know, it's the situation/their awful background that made them turned into one. some don't even fancy sex, they'd hunger for one's passionate love instead. now that's totally way out of hand 'cause in my mind, prostitutes lovesss sex and they'd only live for it. weird how a book could really make such a big difference by changing my own perspective about something. amazing.

and now, i'm running out of things to blog about and i could hear, vaguely, that my mum's calling out for me desperately, so, till other times alright. and by the way... i miss you ! =/

Wuuuuuuuuu!

2007-05-18T02:50:00.000+08:00

Major update people!

Well, im here to blog after gazillions of years not touching the lappie. Erm, not exactly the lappie but blogger. Hehe, well due to the serious "siao-ness" state of this blogger, and also due to the fact that im ABIT lazy ok. Since someone wanted me to blog so much, i shall not disappoint her nor the fellow readers of our blog. As promised, a major update is wad i said, a major update is what you'll get.

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Exactly 13 days ago, i turned 18 years old. And i thank God for all the blessings and for the chance for me to have lived this long. And also not forgeting to pray for more years to come. First half of the day i turned 18 did not went as what I would expect in which the event we will not venture into. The second half turned out to be much better which was muchly appreciated. The next best part of my Birthday was of couse the gift. Who wouldn't agree right?. Well, all i can say about the gifts was that they are indeed priceless. Wanna know what they are? Haha!. Hold on to your horses! Presenting..

From the one who i have had feelings for 9 years (its a fact)..

Wanna guess what is it? wahaha!.. well here it is..unwrapped!

IT' S A PSP!!! WITH PORTABLE SPEAKER!! YAY!!
I mean like OH MY GOD! - *mpersonatiing Janice from Friends* I reallie didnt expect to get something like that from her. It's just wow you know, i just can't describe the feelings when i found out it was a PSP, and it's pink! like what i always wanted!. Hey! Don't laugh, so what if its pink, is yours pink? So what if a guy use pink PSP? Is that wrong? Have someone buy you a PSP before? How many have you seen in public people with pink PSP? So before you judge me better reflect yourself first. And plus its unique, rare i should say. Not like others. Well, anyways, it's a gift from her and i appreciate it way way soooo very much like no other. And i remembered when she wanted to buy the present. She gave all sorts of funny lies like got family meeting at Tampines while i had to work. After which she came back she accidentally left a receipt in a plastic bag: the receipt had the word junction 8 on it. Haha! Busted! She went red that time and couldn't lie her way out of that one. Nevertheless it's her effort i'm thankfull for. you wanna know why?. She went all the way to Bugis then back to Ang Mo Kio then back to Bishan just to get me That. Who doesn't appreciate that is a dumbass idiot. Plus with what happened in between during her trip which i shall not reveal as to conceal her embarassment. Haha! But then again, all that trouble, it's not wasted at all deary, for it shows to what great lengths you would do for my happiness which i'm so appreciative of. MUCH TANKS AND LOVE! And oh yeah she also gave me a card and also 6 games. Aww..ain't she a sweetheart.

This is one of the games, the others are already inside the PSP.

And the other gift is a T-shirt from Agus Farhan and Yokesh, Izuan, Asri and Ridzwan.Sorry no pic for the shirt cos im currently washing it. Newaes tanks guys for the shirt and tanks Agus for the Dinner treat that night.
Well, and i would like to thank the following people on wishing me my birthday.
Sayang, Fifa, Yokesh, Cynthia, My Mom, My Sis, Irfan, Agus, Farhan, Eeka, Michelle, Raimi, Dexter, Nisa, Fidah, Siqi, Faline, Nicholas, Shawn, Asri, Izuan, Ridzwan, Fazilah, Ju, Kak Zub, Raidah, Hwee Mian, My cousin Nurul, Nithia. Melissa. My cousin Kak Efa, Nga Cik, Mak Ndak
And to those others which i didnt mention here. MUCH tanks!

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Well other then my birthay, lets wish these May babies their 18 Birthday!

Farhan Bin Shahmat
10/05/1989

Raimi Bin Zainal
14/05/1989

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Well after birthdays, it's anniversary time. Erm not mine but Irfan and Mai's. I'd like to congratulate them on their anniversay which falls on 12 of May. May you guys last.

Happie Anniversary!

P.s. : Sorry i couldn't make it for your plan. I had to rush over to my late uncle's kenduri.

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And then on the 15th, Fifa set off for Dubai, i dunno for what but im thinking she on holiday. well enjoy urself there and don't forget the Chocolate Rabbits i requested for. Both flavours! Hehe. And make sure you come back soon ya! We're missing ya! Sorry we weren't able to sen you off.

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Well, let's talk about today ya. erm practically i spend the whole day at home. Cleaning up my damn room which is so damn untidy. Phewwww after 5 hours of cleaning i managed to do it.. hehe...i started from 1 pm. and ended at 7 and damn im hungry after that. We'll just let the pix do the talking yoo!

Before..

After..

And i especially like my desk and the rack!

Aren't my room nice??...
HAHA!

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Im dead beat, well i think i gonaa rest and give someone else a chance to blog. well see ya..
And oh ya! My family's now getting along just fine. YAY!

,
az

MY SIGNATURE !

2007-05-17T12:08:00.000+08:00

from now onwards, i'll be using this signature...

instead of the usual...

'cause i'm simply bored of the old one. typical huh ? oh wells. and by the way, fifa is probably in Dubai right now and we didn't even have the chance to say goodbye. hope she had tons of fun there and we're definitely going to miss her a lot ! much love.

i'm getting better though, thankfully. and i'm feeling much blessed about it. =)) !

right now, i feel like watching hindustani movie. why? haha~ it's so weird, like seriously. i just need that romantic atmosphere around me, you know, chasing the girl/guy you're eyeing around a tree or something. bla bla bla... guess i'm just bored and yeah, i'm missing him too much and boy, it hurts. i want to watch a movie !!! pretty pleaseeeee... =/ oh, so random.

i want to meet you ! how ? haizzz...

alright, just strike everything off. this is just one of my boring posts. heck ! pms-ing... dorts.

Whenever it gets too dark,

There's always stars in the sky.

FINALLY !!!

2007-05-16T23:09:00.000+08:00

FINALLY !!!

i'm able to blog again. 12 days gone, now that's a record ! much thanks to blogger for all these crap though =(. major updates need to be done but we haven't had the time yet, especially when your eyes are red, teary and swelling up alike a goldfish ! all hail, sore eyes ! i couldn't be uglier and unattractive, i tell you. anyway, thanks sayang for "sponsoring" my visit to the nearby clinic. $24 for just these...

it didn't get any better ! well, it should be, soon enough or it wouldn't worth a single penny he had spent on me then. GO AWAY, BAD HEALTH ! I HATED YOU SINCE EVER ! URGH ! =/

i didn't go to school since monday, and my MC is till this friday. guess, i'll be rotting at home the whole week, missing quite a lot in my studies. oh wells, two warning letters is already in hand, any surprise in that ? i'm so doomed, right from the very beginning ! oh my... can school be any stresser ? i'm hating it to the core, you know ? you know ? you know ? god, my heart is screaming out damn loud. i need a sunshine/counsellor, please, anyone ?

on the brighter side, we're taking our relationship to the next level. and, mind you, it couldn't be any better. i love him so much ! it's totally indescribable ! =)

and oh yeah, before i forget, happy 1 year to Mai and Irfan last saturday ! and happy birthday to Farhan and Raimi too ! though it's a bit too late but i hope that you'll still appreciate it alright ! haha. may you guys are blessed with better future ahead ! =)) !

and now, i'm out !

wuuu

2007-05-16T08:48:00.000+08:00

blogger ok what?

there's no problem for me..so to those whose having problem with blogger..

i tink it's not blogger that's the problem.

i tink it's got to do with ya coms.

k btw shall have a major update later.

now i need to go doctor.

see ya later folks.

emo-fied me !

2007-05-04T22:19:00.000+08:00

school is killing me ! sadly speaking, i think i've lost my interest in it. i don't know why. perhaps, i find my course so darn boring or maybe due to the fact that i don't even understand the littlest thing about programming or Java-related stuffs at all, and to which i sucked big time. it dampened my spirit to soar any further, you know. i'm giving up. it's true ! i kept forcing and telling myself that i could do it, when i never will. i tried to bear with it but, none would deny that i do have limits to it. maybe, computer networking stuffs whatever shit is just not my thing. i totally regret choosing this course, totally ! i thought it would be fun, but... mistakes are just inevitable. screw it !

furthermore, i hate the fact that the number of malay students in this course are sooooo countable, get what i mean ? i'm not trying to sound racist here but, seriously, why are the chinese population keep expanding and in fact, conquering nearly every parts of Singapore ? i'm just not happy with it. =( ! therefore, a point to note for the fading malay population...

COME ON !

MAKE MORE BABIES ! ! !

HELP OUR FUTURE GENERATION,

FOR GOD'S SAKE !

but of course, i didn't mean for y'all to have it like the "haram" way, shotgun marriage or whatnot. for those who already had the all-in-all rights to have one, please produce more of it. why stick to one ? or two ? 12 per family, can !? haha~ i know i'm being ridiculous. durh ! but seriously, malay population in Singapore is indeed dying. and we've got to do something out of it, right ? urgh !

and i hate rich, spoiled brats ! they grosses me to the core. on the other hand, i'm such a big fan of sexy lingeries ! fancy, looking at them and desiring to have one of those. HAH ! soon, i guess.

i'm so emo-fied tonight ! off to have some nice, tender sleep. but, not for long 'cause i've got to wake up early in the wee hours to help my umi with the preparations for the family meeting tomorrow, at my house. it's lucky that i have to work at 3 or i'll be dead trying to cope with the boredom-ness, like the whole day, seriously. =/

till other times y'all. and omg~, i'm writing a composition without even realising it. haha~ oh wells...

i'm losing it again, boy

2007-05-04T18:22:00.000+08:00

just a kind reminder, baby...

haven't you realised, that it's wobbling again ? if we're not too careful about our relationship this time around, it's going to be difficult. and i'm starting to lose it all over again, boy. you promised not to make me at all unhappy again, right ? but, why this feelings then ? is it me, is it you, or simply it's just us that's isn't working out ? =(

i don't want to feel this way again ! it's hurting me emotionally and i totally hate that. for the love of god azimah, what more do you want !? urgh ! but, i'll try. i'll try to make it up this time. 'cause i love you, but i'm just not happy with you.

a big yay ! to our 16th monthsary, alright.

CKIN2U !

2007-05-03T23:23:00.000+08:00

I'M GETTING US ONE OF THESE REAL SOON !

AND I CAN'T WAIT !YahooOO~

and by the way, i'm thinking of changing our url to www.-eternityLove.blogspot.com but, azri ah, so slow lah, alamak ! haha~ we'll think it through, like again. bleahs xp !

i'm extremely pre-occupied !

2007-05-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

two days out from school and i'm missing quite a handsome already ! tomorrow's my big quiz for IT2839 as well as a solo presentation again for IT2850. and i ain't got anything prepared yet ! and and, next week is like the due date for both of my current projects which i haven't even started writing their respective reports ! not to mention the required product itself ! OMG~ ! azimah, you seriously need to buck up ! =(

BUCK UP, GIRL ! ! !

alright, enough said about school. it's giving me headaches all over again. i've bought the boy a lil' sum' sum' for his incoming birthday in advance. and i know he loved it so much. =)) ! don't worry, he'll keep you guys updated about it soon enough. and i mean real soon. haha~ i nak nyanyikan u lagu happy b'dae lah...

" HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUHD KHAIRUL AZRI B.A.G,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ! "

i know he'll be covering his ears or whatnot right now, al-maklumlah sumbang-seh kan. wth~ haha. as long as i sang it sincerely right from the bottom of my heart, just for him. xp !

and we felt kind of sad that we're unable to join the usuals for Spiderman 3-Vivocity today. it's mainly due to the fact that we've caught the movie already two days back. therefore, we think that it is best for us to hold onto the money for our next movie, Jangan Pandang Belakang instead. we're indeed really very sorry. =(

tomorrow, is like the 4th of May, so...

HAPPY 16th MONTH FOR US ! ! ! weeeee ~

i've always loved you like none other would. i know it's too good to be true, and i'm thankful enough that i have you, baby ! it rhymes ! haha~ but seriously, i mean it. =)) ! and p/s : it's going to be hard, real hard... i know you know what i mean.

i'm just dead bored to the core at this very moment... i need some oreos and a cup of white milk to cheer me up, people. and i've yet to call him. *misses* i'm so darn pre-occupied with stuffs. and i'm exploding soon. i ain't playin' with'cha ! =/

remember, study hard, but play harder, okay ? adios. =)

im de happiest dude on earth!

2007-05-02T19:14:00.000+08:00

I LOVE my HoneyBun to

DEEPESTERESSTESETESTESTICLES core!!

I'll tell yall soon enough why..

stay tuned..

*wink*

LABOUR DAY !

2007-05-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

whaddya know, it's labour day y'all and i'm having fun (since it's like the first holiday out of my second year's first semester, why not ?). we caught Spiderman-3 and it was awesome ! we travelled to Dhoby Ghaut initially to catch it at The Cathay, but unfortunately, the tickets were sold out, thus we head towards Golden Village at Plaza Singapura but there was no seats available either. therefore, we ended up watching it at Eng Wah Sun Plaza, filling up the last few seats right at the front of the theatre. what luck ! but despite having much difficulty trying to get some seats in the full-house cinema theatre, it was totally worth the patience and money though. =)) ! that spidey rocks \m/ ! and i find tobey maguire extremely sexy for the very first time ! seriously... dorts.

and i got flowers from my hubbybun !

well, not exactly, as he just plucked it from somewhere i supposed, but, it's still much loved ! thank you ! *misses* and god, i look so pale in this picture. bleahs XP... oh wells.

and mind you people, i'm a very busy girl lately and i hardly had the time to even switch on my lovely computer to chat/blog-hop/whatever... therefore, i predicted that this blog of ours will pretty soon get all rusty and boring due to the lack of updates in the future, since the other party (the "uploader", *rolls eyes*) was simply too lazy to do his part. haha~... there's just too many projects, too many homeworks and too many things to handle. i'm getting pressurised each passing day and mid-term is not even close yet. why ? the thought of being too complacent with my life is drifting me away from reality. i've got to wake up and be alert that the future is not getting any easier ! *slap my forehead real hard* omg~ i'm such a slacker lahhh. =( !

by the way, nizam's our new supervisor. but who the hell is he ? and he better be real good... Sun Plaza's Cavana owns a peaceful atmosphere and it's nothing like his previous Causeway Point's. enough said. p/s : hanyut-ians can never be given a second chance. trust me. no offence, though.

From my hands,

I could give you something that I made

From my mouth,

I could sing you another brick that I laid

From my body,

I could show you a place God knows

You should know the space is holy

Do you really want to go?

lying

2007-04-27T20:39:00.000+08:00

Im a frigging liar what,
Im a frigging pinochio right; keep telling lies,

that's why my nose is damn big right?
since I'm not worth anybody's trust, then so be it.
just as long as i know and GOD knows i'm not lying, that'll do enough for me.
at least my conscience will be clear.
it's those who don't believe/trust me that aren't.
well good luck with that folks.

,
az

school's been great, fortunately

2007-04-23T23:09:00.000+08:00

school's ain't that bad afterall. i'm loving the new company more than ever. plus, my new heels and wardrobe never fails to boost my confidence. although my first week's attendance was kind of bad, i think i did great. i'm getting there and i'm moving on. throughout the year. without him. wish me luck guys ! p/s : but still, i HATE programming ! =(

and i'm missing him pretty badly right now. az, where are youuuuu ? haha~

i scream for ice cream !

2007-04-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

I WANT MORE SWENSENS PLEASE !

p/s: i'm missing its ice cream !
drools~

and i'm posting this just for the sake of posting. *roll eyes* haha~. i guess you can tell how bored i am right now. oh wells, till other times alright. bye !

deaths are indeed inevitable

2007-04-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

[note]

salam takziah buat juwairiyah sekeluarga. innalillah. sesungguhnya Allah lebih menyayanginya. kita, yang masih berpeluang hidup di dunia ini, hanya mampu sedekahkan doa' dan harapan, mudah-mudahan, hidupnya di akhirat/alam lain itu membawa lebih manfaat, kebahagiaan dan rahmat buat dirinya. Amin.

[/note]

weirdly, all these incidences make me think, like what would i ever do if i'd lost someone so dear/special to me one day.but, i simply couldn't think any further.perhaps, i'm just too scared of the outcomes.or probably i'm just going to be too weak to handle/control my own feelings that i'd eventually go crazy, i guess.i admit.it might be true, though.omg~

or my many other friends that i had left out unintentionally...-(too many to upload)-
PLEASE DON'T TAKE THEM AWAY FROM ME TOO SOON ! PRETTY PLEASE !
i just love all of them too much.emo.

blame

2007-04-16T01:59:00.000+08:00

please don't be angry / pissed / unhappy with one another.

wen i say this i refer to those who were around me this past few days.

i noe alot has been going on.

people say things; unpleasant tings to each other.

please dun be angry with each other.

if anyone is to be blame, blame me

please, im the one wrong here.

im not asking u to blame me.

but begging u to.

i noe im wrong n im deeply sorry to those who was affected.

hate me for all u want, i'll accept it.

like i said, dun hate each other.

if u have to, let it be me.

if anyone is at fault, its me.

im so sorry.

to my friends, to her, to everyone.

please if anyone is to be blame.

blame me.

hmm

2007-04-14T04:51:00.000+08:00

self-centered-ness

reflect abt it..

And i mean EVERYONE..

MP3 !

2007-04-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

I GOT MYSELF A NEW ORANGE CREATIVE MUVO MP3 !

and i'm loving it like none would, trust me.

i agreed to the fact that it's nothing extraordinarily special or simply the in-thing right now but nonetheless, i still heart it and it's been rocking my past hours of the day with blissful music ! \m/. plus, the colour is totally hot ! and i'm melting. haha~

I'M A HAPPY, HAPPY GIRL !

*jumps around*

school's starting soon, and i ain't looking forward to it. not without you... =(

p/s: i'm really sorry about just now but seriously, what's with all the consecutive messages i kept receiving every 1/2 hour ?. honestly, it kind of irritates me like a ~~little~~ lot. i apologise but i have to say this, pretty please stop it. i'm not the kind of girl who keeps looking at my handphone, waiting/hoping for your messages. i'm the one who will call you whenever i misses you. i'm the one who prefers to be thinking about you, hoping that you're always right there by my side, holding me tightly in your arms, and not express it through one stupid phone. you know that you're always in my heart, and so i personally think that it's not wise of you to keep messaging me asking me what am i doing right now, or why didn't you call me or whatsoever. i'll come looking for you when i need you. i don't need someone pestering me to do what i don't like to do at that point of time. i prefer to do things at my very own will. you should know me by now. and i hope you understand and respect the way i feel about this issue.

someone who jual mahal is way better than someone who sells themselves cheap, be it in a relationship already or otherwise. you'll just get bored easily. i'm just stating a fact which i think really is true, in one way or another. think about it. goodbye !

hehe!

2007-04-13T03:05:00.000+08:00

Here something to "celen" my babe's desktop's wallpaper..haha!..

well blame it on boredom..

i got nuts to do..

msn being a bitch..

oppsie!

oh u noe i win babe!haha!

RANDOM !

2007-04-13T02:38:00.000+08:00

presenting our new skin lah seh ! haha ! and i'm loving it so much ! =)) !. oh wells, only one is lacking. i planned to change the song featured here in our blog(since it's so yesterday already), but i seriously had no idea which song i would love to replace it with. -blank- like seriously. i'm so out of songs !

on the other hand, my desktop rocks harder than anything else ! haha~. p/s: prasan sendiri seh, al-maklumlah tkder org nk puji lah kan, puji diri sendiri lah ehk. kesiannyer aku ni. ish3. haha !

i'm thinking of adding some yahoo widgets on it, but i totally had no idea how to. oh someone, pretty please offer me some useful tips. *inserts the most pathetic face ever* haha !. my computer skills is so going down the drain. like i care. bleahs =P.

judging from my post, i suppose y'all could tell how bored i am right now. LOL !. songs are trying to cheer me up but i guess they failed anyways. i'm missing my boo but he can't be online. and for all i know, i blame that stupid MSN. guess i'll be calling him then. oh wells, good morning everyone !

BANNER !

2007-04-12T14:33:00.000+08:00

recalling my yesterday,

THAT FAMILY TOTALLY PROVES THAT CUSTOMERS COULDN'T BE MORE PAIN-ER IN THE ASS !

just the sight of y'all grosses me ! idiots.

period.

alright, tantrum aside please, let's talk about irfan and asri who shockingly started an immediate conversation with me on MSN asking bogusly, "WHAT KIND OF SONG TITLE WAS THAT ?!" well, as expected, my impromptu reaction was the usual -???!!!- hahaha !. in case you might want to know what song i was listening to at that point of time... it's I Wanna FUCK You by Akon. LOL~. it's not like i'm dirty-minded/pervert/whatever names you might want to refer me as, it's just another song rocking my media player, though i 100%-ly agreed to the fact that its title was rather "catchy" i should say. *rolls eyes* =)) !. furthermore, it's just anoher version of I Wanna Love You by Akon and it's super nice to hear. but, doubtlessly, you guys ARE funny, 'cause irfan even go, "azri mesti turn on punyer !" danggg ! haha~. funny lah you, irfan ! and and p/s: they're hiding something from us and they're so secretive about it ! LOL ! woohooOO~ and i just HAD to post this picture up here. just bear with these two faces whenever you visit this blog, like seriously LOL !. credits to irfan, though !

and i'd just realised that both of our eyes had this tiny red dot right in the middle of our corneas.interesting... crap

on the other hand, however, my love is being so indecisive over which banner exactly he would rather choose for his bowling team's Club Crawl event thingy. he was in charge of this banner-making and so these are his very own creation/idea.

or...

p/s: there is a difference, mind you. look closely. =))

personally, to me both are incredibly nice and amazingly structured and whatnot but i'm afraid, i'd prefer the second one. however, it's still up to him to choose anyway. he has the right and not me. i'm just giving him opinions which he might consider thinking about. and i can't believe his photoshop skills exceeds mine already. bleahs =p. but i'm happy for him !

and about tonight, i'll think about it, okay guys. no promises. till then.

SENTOSA !

2007-04-11T13:39:00.000+08:00

initially, we planned to meet raidah at around 11+ thus meeting the rest at yishun while on our way towards our destination, Sentosa, but due to some unforseen circumstances, we had to be delayed. and so, raidah went off first without us. we only arrived at the harbourfront station at about 3+ if i'm not mistaken, and to think that we had to dash through such heavy downpour in Sembawang then that we HAD to bring along a gigantic umbrella with us throughout our journey there, it kind of turn me off a little, but heck, they make my day indeed !

IRFAN, FIFA, RAIDAH

RAIMI, YAYA

THANK YOU !

before heading towards Sentosa, where we were supposed to meet, me and azri decided to just holla them and propose the idea of walking around Vivocity leisurely instead, which might be more interesting to us as compared to the sea-sighting and just practically talk, you know. they agreed and much thanks Coffee Bean girl, amy(yaya's big sister), for the undeniably delicious free brewed coffee of different tastes you offered to each one of us. i heart you =)) !. and as usual, not forgetting our hand-to-hand walk, marching crazily through such big crowd there with some kind of "formation" HAHA !. it was so fun and loud !. we're like the centre of attention, seriously. and oh yeah, our race of "Which-Group-Comes-First-At-The-Cinema" was top of my list !. i can't believe i actually ran ! haha !. although irfan and fifa did arrive first at the finishing line, but due to the fact that raidah only came right after us, me, azri and raimi, thus we're declared the WINNER ! and raidah was like, why? why? why? since she's the one suggesting the race. haha !. don't worry too much raidah, seriously, it's least important, we're just having fun ! =)) !. The Reaping was great despite being confusing at times with all those bible stuffs and whatnot. i love Hilary Swank !. lastly, we talked for hours at the rooftop and it's unexpectedly interesting can !?. now i know what life at Sembawang Secondary School really is like, seriously. i concluded that it's full of great, unexpected rumours about this and that relationship, and not to mention, big fights !. imagine raimi actually punched raidah, on her face ?!. superly unbelievable i tell you. no offence here, aye. i'm just shocked yet, i'm so into it !. and now, i'm so scared of bapoks !. i swear i'm never ever going to find fault with them. ever ! thanks raimi for the tips. haha~

and to think that asri ditch us for a date with jannah !!?

bleahs =p haha~

sincerely, congratulations if you guys were really together !. i'm extremely happy for both of y'all. and whaddya know, you guys look great together ! *wink*wink* HONESTLY, ASRI ! (in case, hahaha !)

and WELCOME BACK, CYNTHIA !. it' so nice to see you again, co-incidentally though. =)) !

sadly, we never actually camwhore like we usually did. but here's one or two pictures for a teeny-weeny bit of memories about this unforgettable day. it marks one of the happy, happy moments in my life that i enjoyed so much. thanks y'all !.

COUPLE SHIRTS !(like finally)

and i'm out !

HUNNY BUNNY WUNNY POOH BEAR !

2007-04-09T10:47:00.000+08:00

08/04/2007

this post was meant to be yesterday's but heck, i'd the urge to blog only today so yeah, that explains it all i guess =)) !. and and, before i proceed to the positive(s), let's talk about the negative(s) first. fyi, it kind of bothers me like A LOT !? ...

IT'S CANCELLED ?!

BUT WHY ?!

WHY ?!

i thought we had already planned about it way beforehand and so, why's the cancellation even possible ?. honestly, i was so looking forward to it. in fact, we had already asked for our off day on that particular date/day. isn't everyone's desperately hoping for another eventful gathering as always ?. then, why ? why ? why lah kan. why ?!. HA-HA !. but deep down inside, i sincerely understand that people are getting busier and busier and it goes on... they had plans of their own and all but ! the message was spread even before April if i'm not mistaken and there's like this teeny-weeny note right at the end which goes something like this, "Please do make yourself free on this day. Thank You." that's what we're trying to do/get and we manage to get it but sadly, maybe others can't i suppose. oh wells, maybe next time i guess. and to the usuals, pretty please try to make some time and not get too caught up with your work and stuffs. 'cause honestly, believe it or not, we really miss you guys ! ='(

and my little nephews couldn't be more irritating. they're seriously getting on my last nerves. how dare they said this to my umi, "nanti, akmal kencingkan muka nya'i(nenek) nak tak ? nak tak ?" and another, "bibi(me) bodoh !". wah ! seriously, if i happen to hear those kind of words/talk coming from their tiny mouths again, i swear i'm so going to sunat their little birdie, skinned that thing off until there's like blood oozing out from their tangling anus. i swear ! URGH !. kids these days are so rude, their parents don't even know it 'cause why ?. they themselves uses these kind of uncivilised words/sentence. well, whaddya know !. boy, am i extremely pissed right now. !@#$%

alright, enough of all the angst and disappointment and let's turn our head around for the happy, happy moments i enjoyed yesterday. =)) !

I GOT POOH BEAR !AND 4 CAKES !I'M THE HAPPIEST GIRL YESTERDAY !

it's just a little celebration of ours, not in conjunction of any particular auspicious day, which you might thought it is. much thanks love, azri ! it's much appreciated and you make my day !.

WooHOOoo !

it's pouring and i'm loving it !. the boy's heading towards hospital right now and i'm just here hoping that everything's going to be fine today. later at 5, i'm off to work. it has always been that way. it's like as if my life had been tightly scheduled, no changes at all. guess i'll be calling him later 'cause i'm starting to miss him all over again !. =)) !. it's so tiring to be in love, with all the miss-ing-ness and the loving-ing-ness etc. etc. etc. but i guess, i'm pretty much blessed !. Thank You Allah ! okay, i'm crapping. HA-HA ! Bye.

YAHooOO !

2007-04-07T00:49:00.000+08:00

surprisingly, this month's pay was unexpectedly satisfying. and so, tomorrow, that couple's shirt we longed for so badly is going to be ours in a matter of time. hehehe =)) !. shopping, here we come !

YAHooOO !

-inserts Yahoo's yahoo-ing-

and and did you guys read today's Berita Harian ?. there's a lot of interesting article, i should say 'cause it did manage to make me view out some of my critical comments unlike the usuals. and azri HAD to be the victim, listening to all of my cynical remarks that i HAD to make and then bear with it. bleahs =p !. i'm sooooo sorry... but, i just can't help it. some of the interesting news includes ;

1. PEGAWAI ADU DIBOGEL DAN DIDERA.

2. NONOI DIJADIKAN HELAH ELAK DIKESAN CNB.

3. REMAJA HILANG SEJAK JANUARI.

...

some hot, hot news indeed !. HAHA !. oh wells, much thanks for the free Caramel Ice Blended, Coffee Bean boy, it's much appreciated and i hope you really do love our new Prata Sausage as well. makanan free, sedap lah kan ?! haha ! *wink**wink*

and oh gosh, i really do need more sleep, and i mean a lot more. my eyes is alike panda's already and i seriously need to make it round and big and fresh again, like it always is, sadly. oh please sing me a soothing lullaby, would you ?. and i need to lose more weight can !?. why is it so difficulttttt ?! ARGH !. period.

need i say that talking about NS just sucks to the core ?. oh well, it is. =( my mood is swinging as i'm typing right now and i seriously need to end my post this instant. okay, bubbye.

HAPPY BELATED MONTHSARY !

2007-04-06T01:20:00.000+08:00

we've survived one year three months together...

& yet, it's still counting.

Alhamdulillah.

let's let our pictures do the talking this time around, okay ?

in case you can't tell what our pictures are trying to reveal, it expresses our love towards each other if you might want to know. every passing second spent together is paradise and all worthwhile.

WE'RE IN LOVE !

-and simply nothing could tear us apart-

=)) !

oh boy am i so exhausted that i could hardly forced my eyes wide open O_O !. az's friends dropped by Cavana shortly, and its so sad that i could only shake their hands and not actually talk, you know. that's, oh well, pathetic but i hope they understand my situation. i'm working, durh !. and it's kind of busy then. thanks for dropping by btw and for those who "kirim salam" me,

WA'ALAIKUMMUSSALAM !

hope to see you guys soon enough okay ?. and now, i'm off. till then, Goodbye.

WIND IT UP !

2007-04-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

wind it up !

TODAY WAS INDEED FUN !

although i've been acting a little cranky these few days, which perhaps only god knows why, the day turned out pretty well with him by my side ! much thanks for the company, boy ! loves =)) !

and and, we did learnt something today. [note] Age would never deter one's desires, ever ! [/note]. HA-HA!. guess what, later that night, in a bus on our way home, a very old pakcik (siap pakai songkok haji semua) sat about two seats in front of us on our left side of the bus. at first sight, he seems religious like any other old malay men should be, perhaps, and we kind of didn't expect him to do the strangest/embarrassing thing ever, initially. but, he proves us wrong, 'cause, when the bus brakes to a stop at its next stop, there's this one hella big poster of a girl wearing a tiny bikini with practically jeans right next to it, posing sexily for the camera. it was kind of attractive i should say 'cause it did manage to get our attention and the others too. and surprisingly, it is at that point of time we caught him red handed staring at that same poster like, the longest ?. hahaha~. you want to know why ?. 'cause, even after the bus starts to accelerate past it, that pakcik kept on staring at it without a blink of an eye, that he even tilt/turn his head around to take a second look of it. -???!!!- seriously !. please lah pakcik, you're old already, so kindly act your age, okay ?. isteri pat rumah tu ader kurang ke ?. geez, it's embarrassing enough just to look at him acting that way, honestly. HA-HA!

oh wells, i'm done. can't wait for my beauy sleep and for another tomorrow ?. NOT!. if only i could stop/reverse the time from ticking away too fast. my life would definitely be far more interesting and "perfect", moving along according to my rules. just as it may seem, sadly, these are the impossibles. =(

PICZIEZZZ !

2007-04-03T01:04:00.000+08:00

I CAN'T WAIT TO GO OUT TOMORROW WITH YOU !

oh, let's catch a movie together, Freedom Writers would be so awesome !. and let's laugh our asses off over ridiculous things, which at least we thought is funny like we usually did, spending our precious time together like none would and be crrrrrazy ! once in a while. haha !. =)) !

recent pictures of ours taken ; (just for the sake of it)

it's after Cavana-ing, as usual, late at night.

nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter,'cause we gonna fight for our right to love.and i got you, baby !

boy, i'm missing you truckloads ! T_T

CON'T ...

2007-04-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

alright, let us try to put aside all the angst, disappointment, unloved atmosphere and the sad, sad situation in our previous post. p/s : rest assured, you should know that i'm always/will be there by your side through everything, be it both the ups and downs in life. i'll hold your hands and we'll glide through smoothly together. and this, i promise you, my dear. much love and concern !

continuation on our 1/4/2007 post ;

presenting, us with our hair well-done (NOT !).

we both rebonded and cut our hair(s) and please don't mind our ~~stupid~~ faces. haha !. we're getting used to it, trust me. and honestly, i think my hair is a little too short as compared to my preferences but azri's, i'm pretty shocked myself that it turned out way better than what i expected initially. even the one's who meddled with our hair praised him, saying, "ciao boy le ma... bla bla bla... handsome liaox !" in Chinese, durh! haha~. oh wells, it'll eventually GROW azimah ! danggg !

my timetable for next semester is ridiculous. enough said. luckily for me, i've no night classes at all. HAH!

and did i ever mention to you guys how beautiful i feel whenever my stomach grunts for food, and how sinful i am if i tend to swallow even a pinch of rice into my mouth ?. but i swear to god, that i'm NOT anorexic !. i swear ! crap.

i heard there's going to be a gathering soon on the 10th of April ?. is that really, really confirmed yet ?. oh it better be, 'cause i'm dying to meet up the usuals, honestly. probably, i kind of missed them, like a lot ? hmmm.

till then.

need i say that April's Fool is so yesterday ?

family

2007-04-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

im gonna de same as what fifa mentioned in her previous post..

im getting sick of the people at home..

n if i may add on, im insanely pissed too..

n not to mention, unloved..

great, my family is nw in its most "spectacular" mode. is it just me or i think something is wrong sumwhere. i dun even know wad to begin writing about them. well people may think im de most disrespectful son or de baddest of dem all by writing stuffs about his family here. well, i have my reasons why n frankly i dun need to tell y. im just letting off wad ive been holding deep inside. Nw, i just cant take anymore of this crap.

1st up is my elder brother : hais, sumtimes i reallie wonder whether we're blood related or not. we have absolutely nothing in common at all.
if you people must know, we hardly ever talked. maybe once a week?.or once in a month?.nahh...its like mostly once in a blue moon. i cant even remember when was de last time i talked to him. wanna noe y?. cos he simply not worth talking to. what?. when people wanna start talking to him, all he reply is with that kurang ajar manner with his voice raised.he thinks he's de eldest of siblings he can run everybody over? and what? u borrow people's stuff can, people wanna borrown urs melenting semacam. he thinks he's eldest, he can say/do what ever he likes? he thinks he's eldest, he can anyhow say people sial2 at home is? moreover its me?. what i take to telephone got trouble u is it? i never disturb u what. y all those words den?. what sial what bodoh? think funny is it?? eh lemme tell u something lar brother, u wanna say something to me, u say it straight to my face. no need to wait for me to go inside the room then u start throwing curses at me. what sial what bodoh? who are you to say such stuffs to me? your my elder brother? hah! so what?..ur still in no position cos u havent been acting like an elder brother to me since u know when? since our previous house. since more then 10 years ago. n my god u were more like a brother to me then, even more then u can ever be i guess. so dun start acting like an elder brother to me now, dun even act so in the future. cos to me, i had an elder brother 10 years ago. sumhw nw, i felt i lost DAT brother n now im left with nothing. u dun deserve de respect from me, nt nw not in de future, just like an elder brother should. nw, sumhw i wished i had a kakak. i really do.

2nd-ly is my YOUNGER sister: wanna noe i CAP de word younger? cos she is younger but she's acting like a older sister den me. im like dumbshit speechless. i mean what ever happened to the siblings in this family man. she doesnt even call me abang u knw?. wen she's toking to me she would go : eh azri, eh azri, eh oi! ..where's de abang?.where's de abg azri? u can call my elder brother abang?..y cant u call de same towards me too?. abang azri..is it soo hard?..too long for u to handle is it?..and please lar, u people should see the way she talked to me, totally no respect at all. talked to me like im her fren. talked to me like sumone unworthy. talked to me like im not her elder brother. she screams, she shouts, she talked loudly towards me unlike towards my elder brother. hello sister. ur 15 dis year, sec 3. please act that age.please act that level can.ur not DAT small anymore u know. like the same as my elder brother, we hardly talked. but at least we talked more compared to my brother. my brother, hah!. dun even bother. what ever happened to sibling love which i had 10 years ago. what happened to the hugs we shared then. whatever happened to talking things out between us. what ever happened to having fun like what we used to more den 10 years ago. time flies.. yes.. but should you siblings do likewise?..
must you people change too?..
ur siblings for goodness, siblings! sadly, nw, i dun feel like i have any siblings.
there are like strangers at home. nw, no respect for each other. i honestly can say, like seriously.i do respect them. but i dun get the same in return. which makes me think, are they worth my respect. cos frankly, i longed for the same siblings which i once had. more den 10 years ago. sibling love is much valued to me den. nw, u can forget it..

3rd-ly my mom : hais. i dun even know where to begin with. it's not im disrespecting her or what by talking about her here. i just wanna share what i feel. that is all. she's the mom, and for that i DO respect her for what she is. i knw i may not be the greatest of sons. but mind you, i am what i am whether you like it or not. if people say people dun want to follow, den u must at least respect their decision. would u like it with someone forced you to do something. i think anybody won't like that rite?. especially u. you don't like someone to nag at you. you shouldn't do the same to others too. you don't like someone to force you to do something. you shoudnt do dat to others too. i already said i don't wanna go. y force me too?. you jolly well knew if i were to folow also, you knw i wud be insincere. n you noe well that lau tk ikhlas kn pon tk gune jugak. den y pakse me in de first place?..i already told u i dun wanna go. i already told u im tired. y cant u at least understand that?. y pakse..if u were tired. i forced u to do something for me would u do it?.well if u do it pon, would it be sincere?..no rite..its good enuf i didnt talked back to you or raised my voice towards u at dat point of time. but don't push your luck. like everything else, i have a limit to everything also. n frankly i dun wanna quarrel or what. but if things reach its boiling point in me, things will go straight that way. i mean c'mon, as a mother you should noe. if u dun de least u could do is understand. at least understand y my decision is likewise. not like wad, i dun want den u shout at me, you hit me n u slam the door on me. what? trying to throw ur tantrum?..lemme tell u what, you havent seen mine. n frankly dun make me. cos i dun wan cos ur my mother,i respect that. i expect the same from u. n one more thing also. you knw just now wen i called home, the convo went on like this;

umi: assalamualaikum.
azri: wa'alaikumsalam.umi ehk?.
umi : ah! nk aper? (in a not happie way)
azri: walid(dad) maner? pgglkn boleh?
umi: hmm (den threw de phone aside cos there was loud bang sound)
(aiya u can noe if sumone throws de phone one lar)

den when de phone was on the ground or wherever it is dey were talking as i can hear their convo.

walid to umi : saper tu?
umi: Anak U lar! p bobal ngn dier saner lar!

.........

immediately after hearing this i straight away felt sad, angry, disappointed, u name it..
what im not her son too is it?..im just my father's son is it?
i knew she's angry with me but must she say so?. i know she's a mom. but so?. should a mom talk to her children like dat? wad? one moment of unhappiness and im NOT her son anymore?. doesn't want admit im her son?. haiz..i dun even noe what to say anymore.
Mom's knows best?. well, to me, never entirely. n sometimes. never will.
prove me wrong then. respect is not the isue anymore. nw, its understanding dats lacking.

***********

haiz, of all the peopl in the house, only my dad n my auntie who lives with us treats me de way i like it. i know i may not be that most wonderful son. but dun blame me. there's a reason y i rebel. there's a reason y kids rebel. n frankly speaking. kids are not de ony ones who needs to do reflection. parents should too. kids rebel cos there's just somthing wrong. as a parent. you should know wad n why.

as for my family. i seriously think we need need to have super long family convo to talk tingss reallie out.

haiz i just miss de old times of my family.
sadly speaking, i just dun feel dat anymore nw.

n even sumtimes, i feel as though im reallie adopted.

i dun feel loved in this family anymore.

n and seriously lar ehk..if u people are not happie to see me or wad..

tell me straight, i can leave.

* sigh*

i miss being pampered n loved by my god- mom and late god- father.
i reallie do.

SECRET RECIPE !

2007-04-01T01:21:00.000+08:00

and so,

being sick of Cavana food and having the idea of trying something new...

IT'S SECRET RECIPE'S TIME !

right after his bowling training sessions at Safra Mount Faber, we decided to meet up with each other, and i had to travel all the way towards harbourfront station, alone, literally, in order to spend our time at Vivocity, just for the sake of it. taking advantage of our off day from work i guess XP. and i was late, not intentionally mind you !. it's due to the fact that my sink encountered a blockage causing some overflow in my dearest kitchen, and i had to clean it all up. ~~stupid~~ useless brothers !. i swear i could really throw their ridiculous, unnecessary computer games out of my bloody window one day, seriously. oh wells, at least my day did turned out great eventually for that matter =))!. much thanks, boy. loves !

and we had...

HOT CHOCOLATE+GREEN APPLE KASTURI DRINK

&

CHOCOLATE BANANA +CHOCOLATE INDULGENCE CAKE+VIENNA BROWNIE

&

PENNE TURKEY HAM AND CHEESE+LASAGNE

oh, need i say more?. it's superbly delicious, doubtlessly. i didn't regret any cents i had spent on those awesome food !. and it made me go, "i wonder what's the secret recipe, really." haha~. and i could see that azri is really enjoying himself swallowing whatever that's there to swallow down his little throat, and that, turns me on !. did that sound right, at all? haha~. crap.

and and later during the night,

along the streets of Yishun,

something caught our eyes,

and it's extremely gorgeous to the core !

i absolutely loves/prefers the black wedding dress. agree? agree? agree?. oh, i can't wait to marry lah. tomorrow can? can? can? or not???!!!. haha~. azri will definitely puts on a big smile on his face when he's reading this HA-HA !. menyampah !

okay, lastly, we had been thinking thoroughly about whether the idea of cutting/rebonding our hair is a very good idea, or otherwise... however, we conclude that we should really give it a try. and so people...

us, before we actually did anything to our hair...

so long and goodnight, hair(s).

TO...

-(to be continued)-*laughs*

lethargic

2007-03-30T01:36:00.000+08:00

boy,

you know i deserve way better than this.

SURPRISE!

2007-03-29T01:19:00.000+08:00

he's off from work today, and so i dread myself to Cavana, forcing a fake smile on my face on every particular "precious" customers although some could really, really blew/burst my head off in just a matter of time. unexpectedly, some army guy do find me cute and they give me a little sum' sum', without knowing that azri could really chop their heads off into several pieces like shattered glasses if it was to happen in his presence, seriously. oh wells, i don't really care either since i'm not at all interested, not one bit. this ain't the first, and i'm pretty sure it won't be the last. so yeah, since i'm a girl, though irritated, i have to bear with this kind of attention. bleahs "p.

and as usual, he fetched me, ensuring my safety back home. but this time, he bought me a little surprise. !!!. though it's nothing extraordinarily special, i was indeed very touched. he knows i've soft spots for delicious cakes etc.etc.etc.

COFFEE BEAN'SWHITE CHOCOLATE DREAM DRINK+TIRAMISU&BLUEBERRY CHEESECAKE !

i pretty much adores it and the taste was undeniably superb. =))!. thanks alot and i really appreciates it dear ! much love.

and and, we just got to know that someone's a lesbian !. damn shocking, please. but after recalling her reasons as to why she became one, it's pretty acceptable i guess. as long as i know that i won't react that stupidly as to change my own perception of myself just because of groping-businesses being done on me. ridiculous. -__-

oh wells, i'm done for now i guess. it's about time for my beauty sleep, twirling around in my very own dreams. conceited. till then.

we lived

we loved

we hurt

we joked

and so, he's my rose~

random-ness

2007-03-27T12:48:00.000+08:00

♪ I belong to me...

It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life baby
It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

I don't need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody's got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby
That who I am is not about who I am with, baby
That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you
I do

I don't need somebody to complete me
I want you to know
I'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

Oh yea

Love don't mean changing who you are to be
Who somebody wants you to be
Nobody's got to belong to nobody

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me ♪

I Belong To Me by Jessica Simpson makes me reflect/think...

IS THIS TRUE ?

oh can somebody tell me

IS THIS REALLY, REALLY TRUE ?

can't believe that i'm so confused of my feelings right now. is it really true that despite being so ~~dangerously~~ in love, you should still be true to yourself and not give up your entire soul within you though your heart is already lost in the deep ocean of love towards him?. fuh! that is so going to be difficult 'cause after all this while, i have always thought that i'm his and i belong to him forever. oh gosh, these lyrics really make me think real hard and it's undeniable that it could possibly changed my point of view towards love, loving and being loved.

-???-

"CAMP!!!" haha

2007-03-25T00:46:00.000+08:00

the last 4 days was a blast !

roaming the streets of orchard at past midnight was spectacular !.though there's not too many shops available by then, it's still fun probably due to the fact that it's my first experience ever ! LOL~. i know, i'm such a pity right ?.oh wells, i'm too endulge in the cooling and soothing night atmosphere that i totally forgot about my sleep. i swear my eyes was like really wide awake and it kept roaming almost everywhere looking for nice clothes etc. etc. etc.even a condom shop caught my interest, which had never been before, seriously. i guess, i'm just too "jakon" at the moment. haha! whatever.

we had SWENSENS for 'breakfast' !drool on~

and we caught...

haha !. this show was awesome indeed.it proves me wrong 'cause initially i thought it will be a dopey and stupid story like it usually is.but, it surprised me with a well-written storyline and it doesn't fail to crack you with tearful laughter. especially the part where mr bean was basking for money with this little French boy along the street !.very the drama lah !.it's a MUST-watch ! 10/10 !.and it definitely won't put you to sleep despite the fact that it's already 1 AM +++.

and and 3 AM +++ by the beach was awesome too !. strong breeze blowing your hair in the dark night atmosphere with only few people around you, and your feet and toes endulged in the beach's soft sand, hearing the gentle waves hitting on the rocks by the beach calling out to you, it's very romantic indeed !.and the dark, dimly-lit starry sky makes us want to lie down and just spend the whole entire night/morning there together, especially when you're with your loved one.it's undeniably amazing and kind of addictive i should say 'cause i definitely can't wait to experience another fabulous moment like that again with you ! >_0

and lastly...
WILD WILD WET !

but sorry, strictly no sexy photos required !haha~

till then, adios amigos !

ponder ponder ponder

2007-03-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

Few self-created self-thoughts to ponder upon..

Love is NEVER ENTIRELY about Hugs and Kisses nor Sex. Its MOSTLY about Give and Take as well as resposibilities, in any aspects whatsoever, towards each other,as well as those around you. And frankly speaking, there is no such thing as Love without disagreements for it only deems one fact- there is NO Love in the first place.

People say that Beauty is a bonus feature any human being could have.To me,its exactly the opposite.It's the "inside" that counts.You can be good-looking with a lousy attitude,or would you rather be good-looking with a like-able attitude. It's hard to find someone who is good-looking as well as good-hearted nowadays. But know this, there ARE such people-but there are scarcely found. To all, people will REALLY appreciate you for your good soul, not your good looks.

Every human being have their own Good and Bad characteristics about themselves.But know this, none human being is the same as the other. None should be COMPARED to the other. None deserve the same treatment as the other for none is the same in any aspects whatsoever. For which each individual deserves their individual treatments in regard on how they have been treating you since you knew them from the BEGINNING.

Having a sexy/ voluptious/ booty-licious/ hour-glass figure/ well sculpted/ nice-toned/ muscular/ etc etc body is A GIFT and never should it be taken likely. Doesnt mean You have that kind of body you have to flaunt it publicly. Doesnt mean your boobs is big and good-looking you have to wear jaw-dropping necklines. Doesnt mean your tummy is super-toned you have to wear tops which show it off like nobody's bussiness. GOD gave you those so you could enjoy it to the fullest with your partner one day. Just think of it, if you wear such clothes, many people would already have seen your body and frankly speaking, do you think later in life your future partner would really be appreciative of u knowing that many other people, the opposite sex in fact, have already seen those which what should have been for-his/her-eyes-only. Have you ever wondered about those who doesnt have what you have and how desperately they crave for the body that you have?. Maybe that will make you learn on how to respect your body more. Just think of things this way: 1stly, NEVER flaunt your body eventhough its good-looking. And 2ndly. It's a God's gift towards you, not everybody can have it.Be THANKFULL at least you do, rather then u don't. Which would u prefer?.

True colours. A person true colours is the one which he potrays him/her self 75% of the time. The other 25% make up those times which is not his/her usual self. Eg: the times when he/she got angry, the times when he/she is in depression, the times when he/she is moody. Basically is what you don't see everytime, the other 25% person of the time. But if he/she is like that 75% of the time, then that is his/her true colours. A person deserve an appropriate treatment based on what he/she do 75%, not 25% of the time. So doesn't mean one day out of the ordinary he/she scolds/shouts/cursed/etc etc u will condemn him/her for life. Remember, it's OUT OF THE ORDINARY meaning its 25% of the time. Which is NOT his/her true colours. Somehow,there must be a reason to why he/she is acting the way he/she did. It's just a matter of whether you would wanna hear them out of don't. After all, everyone deserves a second chance, a third, a fourth, and so on. Wouldn't you want the same from others? After all, "don't judge a book by it's cover" too does relate back to someone's true colours: don't assume,no matter what the circumstances.

There's only 4 most happiest occasion that can ever occur in a human life. 1: Being LOVED by those loved ones as well as those dear ALL THE TIME. 2: Tying the knot with that special someone whom you love ever so deeply: getting marrried. 3: The births of all your bundles of joy: your children, especially your first. 4: Being shown the care and devotion back the same way from your children, as what you have shower on them their entire lives, when your getting older. But frankly, happiness number 4 is hardly seen nowadays. And to tell you the truth, happiness number 4 is the MOST JOYFUL of all the other happy occasions. Trust me, one day you'll know.

updating for the sake of it

2007-03-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

I L.O.V.E YOU !

and god, oh pretty please help me lose some weight...i seriously need to burn all the fats that is in me now. i know azri will definitely go, " -___-, you call this fat?!". the thing is, my dear, i don't feel bootylicious nor voluptious (if that's the way it's spelt). I FEEL FAT AND SAGGY PLEASE! is it me, or is it just me? but i'll definitely won't go anorexic and stuffs. i swear it's just beyond ugliness and plain stupidity! i swear! just look at nicole richie, lindsay lohan etc. who goes star-vation for no reason. triple eeewwwww, please. i prefer them "fat" as compared to now, like seriously.

Don't Matter by Akon is loved! the melody makes me want to groove and shake my 'thang with my baby! woohoo~ SMACK THAT!

should i, or shouldn't i cut my hair? oh god, i'm just so full of thoughts. stupid, crappy and totally unnecessary kind of thoughts...*BIG sigh*

5 more days to go, love!

i love you still.

woo...

2007-03-12T00:45:00.000+08:00

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?You know I gave you the worldYou had me in the palm of your handSo why your love went awayI just can't seem to understandThought it was me and you babeMe and you until the endBut I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about itDon't want to talk about itI'm just so sick about itCan't believe it's ending this wayJust so confused about itFeeling the blues about itI just can't do without yaTell me is this fair?
Is this the way it's really going down?Is this how we say goodbye?Should've known better when you came around That you were gonna make me cryIt's breaking my heart to watch you run around'Cause I know that you're living a lieThat's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
What goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back aroundWhat goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back aroundWhat goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back aroundWhat goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back around
Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed You said that you were moving on nowAnd maybe I should do the sameFunny thing about that isI was ready to give you my nameThought it was me and you, babeAnd now, it's all just a shameAnd I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about itDon't want to talk about itI'm just so sick about itCan't believe it's ending this wayJust so confused about itFeeling the blues about itI just can't do without yaCan you tell me is this fair?
Is this the way things are going down?Is this how we say goodbye?Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)That you were going to make me cryNow it's breaking my heart to watch you run around'Cause I know that you're living a lieThat's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back aroundWhat goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back aroundWhat goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back aroundWhat goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back around
What goes around comes aroundYeahWhat goes around comes aroundYou should know thatWhat goes around comes aroundYeahWhat goes around comes aroundYou should know that
Don't want to think about it (no)Don't want to talk about itI'm just so sick about itCan't believe it's ending this wayJust so confused about itFeeling the blues about it (yeah)I just can't do without yaTell me is this fair?
Is this the way things are going down?Is this how we say goodbye?Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)That you were going to make me cryNow it's breaking my heart to watch you run around'Cause I know that you're living a lieBut that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back aroundWhat goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back aroundWhat goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back aroundWhat goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back around
[Comes Around interlude:]Let me paint this picture for you, babyYou spend your nights aloneAnd he never comes homeAnd every time you call himAll you get's a busy toneI heard you found outThat he's doing to you What you did to meAin't that the way it goes
You cheated girlMy heart bleeds girlSo it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurtJust a classic caseA scenarioTale as old as timeGirl you got what you deserved
And now you want somebodyTo cure the lonely nightsYou wish you had somebodyThat could come and make it right
But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathyYou'll see
(What goes around comes back around)I thought I told ya, hey(What goes around comes back around)I thought I told ya, hey(What goes around comes back around)I thought I told ya, hey(What goes around comes back around)I thought I told ya, hey
[laughs]See?You should've listened to me, babyYeah, yeah, yeah, yeahBecause(What goes around comes back around)[laughs]
WHAT A TOTALLI COOL VIDEO AND OH SO SPLENDID LYRICS !
JT is much loved !and i can't believe he's still singing about britney. geez.
AND I GOT A NEW PAIR OF EARRINGS !thanks boy, and you're forever loved !

and work was a blast too with cindy as our closing supervisor. =))!. serious-ness/being discipline etc etc etc is totally out of our dictionary. and we're totally out of control !. laughing is our addiction. nyahaha! and could kelvin be more irritating than ever ?! haiyozzz... today was indeed fun ! love it !

1 year 2nd month!

2007-03-08T00:43:00.000+08:00

Ikrar kita mengharungi badai sakti Mencari sinar kasih suci Walaupun nafas ku ini pasti terhenti Jangan pula ada sangsi lubuk hati Percaya cinta tiada ganti Kau yang ku cari Kaulah kasih ke akhir hayat nanti

OH BILALAHHHHH ?!*winks*

love u so much hubbybun!

2007-02-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

haha!. as i had mentioned before, be amazed with our new skin and do enjoy the current song choice of ours, Total Eclipse Of The Heart by none other than Westlife themselves. and and, i'm endulged with these extremely dangerous exam fever and it's critically high! *__* HELP!. haha!. anyways, met up with...

FIFA, CLAUD AND RAIDAH

while cooking my cheeseballs for some "precious" customers!

and they look good like they always do!. too bad they wanted to dine in KFC instead =((! haha!. kind of missed them since it's been quite a while since we last met. and and, fifa looks different in a very good way. and i mean very!.perhaps, it's her face, or, her clothings?. i'm pretty unsure myself. haha!. whatever it is, see you guys around more often ok?. hee!.

and i can't wait to see hubby's new haircut tomorrow!!!. wee!. =))!. and perhaps, another movie?. haha!. we're such a movie-maniac nowadays. so far, NORBIT was damn hilarious! but EPIC MOVIE...nahhHH~!. too shallow. DUKUN and HANNIBAL RISING better be good, i tell you!. haha! oh wells, 2 days off from hectic workplace is going to be so worth it. =))!

everytime i see you, i'm aliveand i'll hold you until the day i dieoh, i so want to be inside your heaven!

weehee!

2007-02-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

met...

IRFAN AND MAI

at work! =)

and they love CAVANA food !. as i was told, at least. haha!. so people, LAI LAI LAI to CAVANA more often okay !. oh i'm such a CAVANA-maniaco ever since being devoted to it for about a month already. =))!. haha!. yada yada yada etc. etc. etc. and irfan, i'll try to drop by "your" coffee bean someday, but make sure you'll pay for my duit tambang in order to go all the way there lah. haha!. kidding...

and he picked me up from work just to have someNIGHT LOVE ATMOSPHERE!haha~!bla bla bla...

and i'm starting to get bored with this skin and song choice of ours. got to have a new one soon. and i mean real soon. and oh boy, can't wait for another movie tomorrow wih you! =))!.

we are each of us angels with one wing.

and we can only fly while embacing each other.

*much love*

enjoyable day with you!

2007-02-20T00:02:00.000+08:00

honestly, i find blogging kind of unnecessary lately as there's simply just too much updates in our life to write about that i find it extremely pointless to note down each and every single one of them. and these, indirectly, explains our lack of updates. =). pardon us, but we can't just abandon it like it's none of our business right and so, i've decided to only blog whenever i feel like it, or in other words, ikut mood lah ehk. haha!

today was indeed splendid!. i lied to my manager just to skip a day from work in order to spend time with him, just for the sake of spending time with him you know, if you get what i mean. haha!. i'm just not satisfied with the fact that he was able to leave early from work *jealous*. and so, i lied for the better. nyahahaha!. lying does helps in one way or another =))!. thus, we went off together to catch;

GHOST RIDER !

and one word...

SUPERBBBBB!!!

5/5

in my opinion, at least, it's a very nice show and worth all the time you take watching it. it's uber fantastic with an un-complicated/confusing storyline and i love it. graphics was great too. well, at least it's not disappointing having nicolas cage charm and eva mandez beauty as its main weapon but one thing that's lacking for sure. i just hope that the characters won't be too ugly and scary looking as it does kind of frightens me a little. and i'm sure others will be taken aback too. haha!. but heck care, at least it's worth our $$$. =))

and we camwhored right after. =))!

FUN! FUN! FUN!

AND GELARE' IS NOT CERTIFIED AS HALAL YET!

that is so going to be our first and the last time eating there. it's not about the food's tasting bad/not up to our expectations or what not. it's just us being extremely cautious on whatever things we consume. thus, we both decided that it's wise for us not to eat there anymore and luckily, we only tasted the ice creams and the hot fudge just now. not the red wine beef or ham or etc. etc. etc. it's such a pity for a food that great to be not halal. -___-

IYOYEH LOVEVOVEH YOUYOYEH!hahaha~!
and i need you now tonightand i need you more than everand if you'll only hold me tightwe'll be holding on foreverand we'll only be making it right'cause we'll never be wrong togetherwe can take it to the end of the lineoh i really need you tonightforever's going to start tonight.

mega update

2007-02-15T15:39:00.000+08:00

mega update here...
first and foremost...

HAPPIE VALENTINE DAY!!..

dis is de 2nd time im celebrating V-day with her...

n my god i LOVE every moment of it..

last year's was nice..

n dis year's was even better...

de day started out with her coming to my house..

to wrap up a birthday present for her mum...

which we bought earlier...

(will tok abt dat later in de post)

but we ended up not wrapping it cos..

firstly de present is tooo big...

n 2ndly..our wrapping paper is tooo little...

so there you have it..

wanna noe wadz de present??..

well read on n you will noe laterrr...nt nw..

nonetheless we proceed on to her house...

rang de doorbell n pooof!...

SURPRISE!!!...

happie bday umi!..

well she said dat lar..

haha..

i said happie bdae cik!...

hehe...

we caught her in surprise while she was having lunch..

tank god she reallie didnt get soo shocked otherwise

can affect her eating...

well first ting umi said was...

aper tu??...haha...

so cute lar her mum..

den we explain it all...

later den you people will noe wad is it ok??...

be patient..

after de usual wishes from us to her...

we went out..

for a celebration of our own..

hehe..

kiter pon nk njoy mahhhh...

so thus head on to causeway point..

well, cant go far2 cos later hv to work..

haiz...sad storie rite?..

hehe..

neways..met audi at mrt and all 3 went to causeway tgt..

he meeting his gf there so yeah..

they wanted to watch a movie n ask us along..

but too bad..de movie times weren't in our favour..

so after arriving at causeway..

we left audi n proceed to find an eating place..

cos u wanna noe y??..

my honeybun wanna gimme a treat!!

yay!..

a compensation for not giving me anitin for V-day last year..

aww...sooo swttt isnt she...

but honeybun...toksah kasi present2 k..

kasih sayang u sudah ckp memadai utk i..

aww...

hehe..

so we weren't sure of where to dine..

de choices were..

gelare..

swensen..

pizza hut..

others were...nahhhhh..not today!

n finally we agreed on pizza hut!..

yay..!

while waiting to be seated...

we met asri's kakak n her husband..

haha...

kk..

we were q-ing rite..

den they come from behind..

n de husband was like saying..

bleh join bleh join?..

i didnt notice it cos i was looking at de promo..

but azimah did..

n she was like naper ngn orang ni?..

tk tau malu ker?..

hahahahaha!!..

den finally wen i noticed dem,all like happie2 like dat..

haha...n i bet azimah was like malu abit...paiseh lar..

cos she realise de husband was toking to me..not her..

haha...nvm!...it was funnie ok!..

haha...

well i knew de husband from my workplace..

Cavana..the same outlet..he used to be de manager there..

but nw dun hv readie..

n its tru asri i knew him lar..

well..

neway...

wen seated...we took our orders...n look at wad we ate..

12 chicken drumlets..1 mushroom soup..1 sausage mania pasta..1 regular size hawaiian pizza with 3 cheesy lava crust..n 2 drinks called berry potion..

yes drool people..droool!..haha..tempting isnt it??. de best part is..we managed to finish all of it!
yeah!!...i love de food!..tankz dearest!well i had a great day with her..after dat delicious meal..we walked ard n camwhore!..yeah!..here are de pix to njoy...

The Previous Day

well, today we decided to go shooping!
yes!..shopping for azi's mum birthday...
which falls on de same day as V-day..
14 feb 2007...
yessa...
n wad better place to shop other den dis 3 MEGA SUPER HUGE malls..

IKEA,Courts Megastore and Giant Hypermart..wahaha..well too bad Giant hasn't open yet..so all we could do was go to the remaining 2 others..first up was IKEA home furnishings..n my god lemme tell u wad a specatacular time we had there..haha while searching for dat particular present..we surveyed sum nice furnitures and all..we even discussed which one we want..which bed..which sofa..which carpet..which kitchen sink..which bathtub..wad theme colour for each roomm..wad goes there..u noe like couples hu are buying stuff for their houses..we was like dat..haha...hey its fun i tel u..we're planing for our future..haha..dead serious..anyway..we had our eyes on some tings..n decided on wad theme colour for de rooms..well all i can sayy is..u hv to wait till d actual day we hv our own house..cos ony den u get to see our tastes..we aint revealing it here..later got copycats!..haha..well..u people wanna noe wad we bought for azi's umi?..its a...

vaccuum!

her vaccuum is spoilt datz y we bought another for her..
i tink its a perfect gift!..
haha...dats y...we went to these malls..
we killed 2 birds with one stone..
got her a present..
n ideas for our future home!
yay!
well we had funn...reallliee222 fun fun u noe?..
den we had dinner at cavana..
yess i noe..cavana cavana cavana..
wad u expect..food there is good u noe..its GREAT even..

wuuuhh...nyam nyam!!

well after dat wonderful dinner..
we head on to a nearby park..to hv a moment together..
n some camwhoring..
n ya..sum' interesting happened wen we're there..
well, cant revealed here..
only we noe..
haha!!!
well, here are some pixx to njoy...

N a little tribute to the one i cherished most

it doesnt take a Valentine day for me to love u more..

dat iniative is already embedded inside me..

for i love u even more as days goes by...

Just so u noe..

..Everyday is Valentine's day wen im with u..

Hubby loves u Honeybun!

sooo much...

so very much...

Hugs & Kisses

a year and a month..

2007-02-04T15:24:00.000+08:00

It feels just like yesterday that i first saw your face..
It feels just like yesterday dat i first held your hand..
It feels just like yesteday dat i first kiss you..
It feels just like yesterday dat i first held u tight..
It feels just like yesterday dat i first told u hw much i love u..
And it feels just like yesterday dat YOU first told me, u love me too..

I remember soo vividly all those memories...and the ever soo
spectacular and eva-so-warming emotions dat accompanies it..
emotions dat can never be felt with others..
except with u..
emotions dat i felt were true..
from de first time i felt it..
up till now..
and never will i want any other feelings from any others,
not even one..except from u..
n these words all i hold true..
true to de one n only..
true to u..

It's been exactly 1 year and 1 months since..
de moment dat we shed tears together..
at dat very paticular night..
It's been exactly 1 year and 1 month since..
we've been honest abt wad feel for each other for d 1st time..
It's been 1 year and 1 month since..
I first LOVE u n u do too..

and it's been 8 YEARS and 1 month since..
i've first fell for u..
and never..
i repeat..
NEVER..
regretted it..
not even once..

* Happie 1 year and 1 Monthsarie dearest *..

Hubby loves u..s00 much..

lalala...

2007-02-01T00:39:00.000+08:00

listening to; Let Me Love You (Mario)

CAVANA-IANS !!

so sorry everyone due to our lack of updates since we're kind of busy lately cavana-ing and stuffs =))!. but it was so damn fun. friendly managers and staffs, fabulous "FREE" food, cheeseballs, azri, oh gosh, need i say moreee?! haha!. can't believe we could "click" with practically anyone there in just like what, 3 days?. and i even got OT pay already. cool huh? oh yeah it is! haha!

and.....

HAPPY 18TH B'DAE IKIN !!

i love you lah ikin hahaha!. please do enjoy your b'dae okay girl?. jangan stress2!.may all your wishes come true okay, and yeah, it's nice knowing you since my very first day in polytechnic. i heart you lah "kakak"!. wakaka! =))!

wildboys, IRRITATING!

mat's, i so HATE them

guys with concepts, RIDICULOUS!

playa, NO WAY !

BEING SIMPLE IS EVERYTHING !

one who is an Islam, and acts like one

one who's not eager to see sexy girls/gf

one who won't drool over naked CHEAP women

one who won't care about other girls except his gf

one who knows how to take care of his girl's dignity

and not showing them off

one who knows his limits

now that's...

MY TYPE OF GUY !

AND HE'S THE ONE !

and so, to hell with that guy who asked for my number just now, who definitely lies under one of my "guys-i-loathe" list. i won't go crazy over your type no matter how good looking you are. and mark my words ! =))!

rough week

2007-01-26T23:56:00.001+08:00

well this week is a pretty rough week...so many things going on..

but alhamdullilah nothing super terrible happened...well on de other hand..

we've been taking pix and all...basically just having fun...and oh yeah...we got a job...

somewhere closer to home...which is SUPER convenient for us...

at sun plaza's cavana...

haha...yeah...both of us did...well we are regular customers there...all the manager pretty much knows both of us...what??...we're sociable people you know...n super friendly too...haha...i guess it made it easier for us to get the job then...and the pay is quite reasonable...we love it!...love the chicken!...love Cavana!..haha...oh well do drop by to our sun plaza's cavana outlet people...haha...well here are sum pix to njoy...

Cool Slideshows

all wounds will heal

2007-01-21T12:36:00.000+08:00

life is INDEED..

...hard...

one way..

or another..

n dearest...

im here for u...

always..

DAT 'wound' will heal in time...

dun worrie...

HEE!

2007-01-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

=)) !. this is supposed to be wednesday's post but due to the undeniable shag-ness, i decided to have it written today instead - (since the other party is so LAZY to do his part *yakdish*). we had fun, cycling together around the sembawang estate, explore a very, very, very deserted park which is kinda creepy i should say though it's in the day, went to the beach like again, where we practically slept together for like hours, on a particular bench !. hahaha !. no doubt, it was an enjoyable, fun, fun day again with the boy !. love you like none would =)) !

and oh yeah, before i forget - (since i'm such a dreamer !)...

HAPPY 18TH B'DAE RAIDAH !

can't believe you're already legal lahhhhh, while i have to wait for like what, another 11 bloody long months for my turn to come ! ergh ! haha !. anyways, have fun being 18, selagi boleh. may all your wishes come true and good luck for your future endeavours alright. and remember, we're primary school friends and still is now ! nyahahaha ! =)) !

and i can't wait for tomorrow ! SENTOSA !!!. here we come ! =))

Our Love Is Simply Priceless

pixies

2007-01-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

well im bored to nuts...so wad else is there to do?...
nutin reallie...
so i took my time to do sum' creative...
n dis is wad i came out with...
wahaha...its hilarious...but nice though...*ahem*...

n i edited my end-post sign-off signature too...take a loooooook.....

yeah! i like it!...chao for now!

arent they cute??

2007-01-14T12:06:00.000+08:00

hey people...
take a look at wad i discovered...
its sum interesting n amusing...
haha...but its cool dudes n dudettes...

waarggghahahahahahaha...i find diss pic sooo funnie wen i realise dat dey actualie look alike...

haha...welll at leastt both of dem are DAMMMNNNN cute....

n i love both of dem to bits...

especially de one on de right...

she beats de left one hands down man!..

be amused by de likeliness!

haha!

PROJECTS TUT !

2007-01-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

projects are hectic !

and so getting on my last nerves !

but, i'm still smiling because of you though

A FAKE UP OF MAKE UP

=))

hee...

2007-01-12T21:19:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I feel discriminated against.But, it does not make me angry.It merely astonishes me.How can any deny themselves,the pleasure of my company?It's beyond me !

me and you, It's L.O.V.E !

sembawang park !

2007-01-11T10:08:00.000+08:00

SEMBAWANG PARK WAS A BLAST !

it was a hot, hot wednesday afternoon yesterday. but no doubt, we did enjoy ourselves very much. and the strong breeze makes us even more comfortable together as compared to the usuals. it brought about some sort of a romantic atmosphere you know despite having to bear the weather's excruciating hot-ness ! =)). it was indeed a time well-spent with my loved one, azri, as expected.

and and azri got a "wonderful foot massage" by me ! HA-HA!. fyi, he injured his left foot/ankle while we're playing obstacle course at the park's playground. i know you guys will definitely go -??-!. we're just having fun y'all ! =))

thanks baba for that splendid hot/fried char kuay fish with cheese and mayonnaise. love it ! and to akmal and iqbal, cotton candy is nice lah, please ! pasar malam is so fun with family, unexpectedly ! - (since everything's is like what, free! HA-HA !)

alright, i'm off for now.

Your love is like the wind,I can't see it,but I can feel it.

GYM !

2007-01-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

OFF TO GYM !(at cavana)

AFTER GYM-ING !(sweaty couple =) )

this post was actually meant for yesterday's entry but since blogger's a bitch then, we had to postpone it to today's instead. =)) !. anyways, we had lots of fun exercising together in the gym, with az as my very own professional gym trainer, i woudn't want to ask for more ! haha !. i ran on the treadmill for like 20 minutes to tighten up my flabby thighs, which made me so sweaty and uncomfortable. and and, i did about 100 sit-ups and 50 crunches - (i know it's that bad right? haiz). some leg exercising and hand-pulling thingy -??-. i seriously had no idea what it's called. HA-HA!. i'm working very hard for a toned stomach and smaller/sexier thighs. and i personally think that my arms is already quite big for a lady. so, there's not a need for arm exercises. =))

and, "A WALK TO REMEMBER" is certainly my kind of a movie !. it's a blast with a perfect mixture of basically everything !. about a love so sweet, sincere and positive...nothing could beat that and it's my all-time favourite movie, erm well, at least for now, though it's kind of outdated already but who the bloody hell would care right?! =)). most of its romantic lines is already permanently restored in this hollow head of mine. as expected. bla bla bla etc.

I know that forever is in your eyes,the moment i saw you cry.

fatin's crib...

2007-01-08T22:45:00.000+08:00

Cute Ain't She ?! (as i was told)

as usual, school's a bore !. i skipped a lecture and another creative thinking thingy like again, despite the fact that i've received 4641486435436883 warning letters from NYP already !. oh bother...i'm such a slacker this semester, pardon me hehe !. XP

well, on the bright side, however, i did went to fatin's house to have tons of fun-time together, along with shikin. az joined us much later at around 5++. we watched JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE since NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM was cancelled due to one reason or another. haha!. the story was rather of an ookkaayy rate than fantastic i should say as in my opinion, the ending simply sucks ! =)). though i kinda like the part where the "g-string" idea became some sort of a fashion trend in that particular high school !. kind of fascinating yet interesting at the same time ! haha!. and i tink it's sexy for a guy to wear one. ooopppzzz ! =))

and and she's got this cute, adorable kitty-cat !!!. too bad i'm just too afraid to touch/even come near her =((. her name's MARBLE !. take a look at her. she's just too adorable to be ignored so i decided to take pictures of her cutey2 face ! needless to say, she's a one naughty, naughty cat ! haha! she kept running/attacking a little red ball (her play-toy), that kept me all jumpy, shrieky and sweaty (seriously) !. i so hate animals but i do love them ! - (go figure =)) )

i'm so looking forward to tomorrow !...we're going to go gym and burn some fats out of our fatty bodies ! haha !. i seriously need some workout, it's about time i guess. and yeah, i would love to have a BEAUTIFUL, SEXY BODY BY NOW ! - ( to please my own hubby =)) ). beyonce, nicole and fergie, you're my inspiration.

So Better Do Your Job

And Transform Me Into You !

monday blues

2007-01-08T08:25:00.000+08:00

...i HATE fcuking mondayss...

...mondaysss alwaysss fcuking sucks..
.
...it's always a fcuking bad start for de week...

coolios !

2007-01-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

Cool Slideshows

today, we basically spent most of our time editting our pictures and make it more interesting to look at, since we've got nothing much better to do. haha!. and most of it turned out kind of nice i should say. oh wells, credits to us, of course! =)).

and dare i say, school's a bitch !. it's week 13 already by now and i have yet to start on any one of my projects, due on week 15 possibly. urgh !.irritating shit lah !. pardon me for my use of words, azri. i'm really very sorry !. i'm a one stress, stress girl ! =((

There's a special place in my heart,

That only you can touch.

A place where I can go and feel you near.

Throughout the day I think of you.

I see your smile, hear your voice,

And in my thoughts you lovingly appear.

The way we love each other,

Makes it hard to be apart.

So when I can't hold you in my arms,

I hold you in my heart.

- We're Just Being Ourselves-

claudya's open house !

2007-01-07T01:28:00.000+08:00

sadly, asri came late...

that explains why he's not in any of those pictures.

CLAUDYA'S CRIB !

today, was a hell of a great day. fun! fun ! fun!. there was a LOT of people then. christmas carol-ing and all. it was indeed very crowded, seriously. once arrived, me and az had to wait for quite some time outside her house before we could actually step our feet in there. haha!. but it was worth waiting though. we ate her mum's fabulous cooking and chill under her block with all "SSS's gang". =)). fyi, that's where most of our pictures were taken. hee !. DEUCE BIGALOW was splendid though i've watched it twice already since it manages to crack me up on any possible jokes/sarcasm presented. and claud's dad is so damn funny !. he's likeable and i love it. very charming i should say for someone his age. =)).

well, too bad not many people was there, like the usuals, raidah, irfan, ridzwan, ezuan.....most of them were cynthia's friends. haha!. if only all the "abang2s and kakak2s" were there to outnumber them, it would definitely be way better !. gerenti kecohrable gitu. haha!. anyways, the day turned out pretty well !. and credits would definitely go to claud and her family members, of course ! =))

fantastical-licious !!!

random...

2007-01-06T00:31:00.000+08:00

Before thinking of keeping a wallet you've found,think of how you would feel if someone else,finds your wallet,and keeps it!
Be A Man Of Value People !not just a man of success...its not enough.

okay, i'm crapping hereeee !. hahaha! =))

i want to love you forever, oh yeah !

1 yearrrr...

2007-01-05T00:23:00.000+08:00

Oh Yeah !What A Splendid Way To Celebrate Our Anniversary !

this is the very first surprise i got from him - [ a sticker on one of the glass panel of a particular shop in Sun Plaza, pasted there for the public/all to see ]. to tell you the truth, i was so damn touched. i mean like, who wouldn't, right?. haha =). seriously, i didn't expect it at all initially...and i was like so stupid 'cause i can't even recognise my dearest's handwriting among the others then. wth~ haha!. but, i did find it anyways ookkaayy! - [despite having it right in front of my eyes, haha, it's so funny!]. >_0

then, we're off to ECP to have some kick-ass fun! hehe! needless to say, ECP is so beautiful!...and it was no doubt, a time well-spent whenever you're with your loved ones, agreed?. we spent quality time laughing at each other, joking around, hugging, kissing bla bla bla...together!. oh it's so undescribable with words. and let's just let our pictures do the talking!

we had so much fun!. i love you so much! and here comes another surprise! =)) hahaha!...azri is so full of surprises, seriously. and i can't help myself being amazed with much awed whenever he's up to something, if you know what i mean. haha!

An Anniversary Card Self-Created By Him !right form the bottom of his heartand that's what matters most.
and it's the sweetest card everrrrr !

MY SOULMATE !!!

beautiful love

2007-01-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

Life Is Always Beautiful Whenever You're By MeThank You SayangAnd...
HAPPY 1 YEAR TO US PLEASE !
=))

by the way, do you still remember these words i dedicated to you once?...

"Usahkan mahu menyentuh hati,

Mengintai cintanya juga tidak ku berani,

Membiarkan masa menjadi saksi,

Biar mencintaimu takkan aku berhenti.

Aku mahu menyintaimu sepenuh hati

Dan membawa cinta ini,

Hingga ke mati.

Sewaktu hati mahu dicinta,

Yang ku cari adalah bahagia,

Bila cahaya tersuluh di wajahnya,

Aku merasa getar seluruh jiwa.

Tak terbayang kelainan rasa,

Mungkinkah ini,

Destinasinya.

Aku tidak pernah mencari,

Namun yang telah ku temui ini adalah kasih sejati,

Seorang lelaki yang ku cintai,

Memberiku dunia yang tidak pernah sepi."

and you know what, sehingga sekarang perasaan ini yang i pernah rasakan sejak 04/01/06, tidak pernah luput walaupun sedikit. malah, ianya semakin mantap, kukuh lagi kuat di dalam hati kecil i ini. percayalah, u adalah perkara yang paling hebat pernah berlaku dalam diri i dalam tahun 2006 ini. ooppss, mungkin buat selamanya, i yakin, insya' allah. dan mudah-mudahan apa yang telah kita kecapi dan belajar dari salah silap kita yang lalu, akan membuat perjalanan percintaan kita sampai ke destinasi yang kita idam-idamkan selama ini dengan tenang dan penuh dengan keyakinan, kasih sayang di antara kita. u tidak akan pernah tahu betapa bahagianya i tiap kali u berada di sisi i. that is like the most ultimate thing of my life. >_0. i love you so much!

WE'RE ONE BABY !right from the start...[<3]

my lingering thoughts

2007-01-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

these are my opinions and what i learnt back then in 2006...reflections, reflections...well a warning if i may, it's going to be totally random! =))

Attitudes are self-centred. You can either choose to be victimized by circumstance and people, or choose to look at life with an open mind and be victorious. NO one else can choose your attitude for you. Your perspective and choice of attitude gives you the power to be in control. Now, that is the essence of true freedom!

Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or otherwise. So, do choose wisely.

We cannot tell what may happen to us in the strange medley of life. But we can decide what happens in us - how we can take it, what we do with it - and that is what really counts in the end. How to take the raw stuff of life and make it a thing of worth and beauty - that is the test of living. =)

And it's often that people are just too busy wondering what you think of them, to even bother to think of how YOU look or act. So stop being so self-conscious and 'live' your life, azimah! wakaka!

agreed???!!! >_0

and oh yeah, a new year well-celebrated with you!!! with fabulous food and candle light thingy...it's just so memorable. ada ooomph! YAY-US!!! hahaha =)

i'm missing you preety badly...=)

HAPPY 2007 PEOPLE !

sorry for the late wish though

Our new year!

2007-01-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

while everybody else was celebrating New Year at Outside..i on de other hand spend some very very, quality, memorable, spectacular, THE BEST times with my dearest at home..we cooked together (pictures will be posted after dis post), sang songs together, got ourselves a full body massage at dis FABULOUS place dat has candle lights to give dat very calm and romantic mood when we're there..well cant reallie describe everything dat we did here (private stuffs u noe) but all i can say is dat its one of DE BEST TIMES of my life..sum' unforgettable, sum' very very memorable...n sum' i guess no one else can find out y but ony ourselves...well dat was our way of celebrating new year...n damn!...its much beta den dat compared to elsewhere..be it esplanade or orchard or wadeva...what i noe is my choice of celebrating the new at where, or with hu...is indeed a very very good one...well to all...happie new year!...sowie for de late wish...njoy 2007..if dis year sux for yall...there is still 2008, or 2009 or 2010..u name it...there'll be your year...haha!...take care all...

...

2006-12-26T18:38:00.000+08:00

We're simple yet so confusing...

wonder if that's good or otherwise

ssshhhhh

just don't answer

as i simply do not want to know about it

2006-12-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

im such a stupid person..

y am i soo messed up this few days..

Usah Lepaskan Sayang...

2006-12-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

Usah biarku bersendirian...
Usah biar hatimu ditawan...
Usah biar diriku disini...
Seorang menunggu tanpa teman...

Usah lepas genggaman tanganmu...
Usah biar semua berlalu...
Usah terlupa perasaan hati...
Pertama kali kita bertemu...
Usah lepaskan sayang...

please don't tell me that i'm the only one that's vulnerable...

impossible...

Secret Recipe

2006-12-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

well, we had Christmas Dinner at Marina Square's Secret Recipe..

food was great...

but was abit costly too...

after dat...we had a great session of cam-whoring...

lets let de pix do de toking shall we...

enjoy...